Starlight Cries.

Had First Day At College Today

2011-09-05T15:23:00.000-07:00

Well I got my GCSE results on 25th August 2011, and seriously I did rubbish in my exams, I'm not even going to post what I got as they were absoluetly shit! I could have done so much better and I hate myself for not trying harder especially for my Religious Studies exam I was 1 or 2 marks off a B grade which pisses me off now that I have a C grade for RS -_-" ~

and well basically I thought I couldn't get accepted into my school's sixth form since they needed 5A*'s-B's and I thought I only had 4A*'s-B's so I gutted and had to apply for my college sixth form where I could do my a-levels there since they needed 6A*'s-C's which obviously I had achieved that. But apparently my D grade for btec p.e meant a distinction which makes out another A grade so techniqually I do have 5A*'s-B's but the problem was by the time I found out I already enrolled into the college and at the same time the head of sixth form of this other school which I emailed them asking them if they have space emailed me back telling me that I have a space for me to do my AS level subjects but by the time I got the email, again I had already enrolled into college, so I was annoyed by that, since I wanted to stay in sixth form as all my friends were there and I knew the teachers better and everything but now I had to go to this sixth form college at oaklands in st albans and I knew no one from my school there, though there were some graduaters from my school two years ago, but no one in my year is doing a level's at oaklands college this year... o.O which means I'm a loner here now.

that's the story of how and why I enrolled to oaklands, and I had my induction day today. for me it's hard to meet new people as I am really shy when it means to get talking to other people... but when I get to know someone I can be the loudest person on earth, weird right? I got to meet some new people I guess, there were these two girls, they were really nice and friendly but they're both doing all sciences which are from a different campus to which I am from as I am doing AS level english language, mathematics, economics and accounts... lets just hope I can cope with all the work. >.<
I'm sure I will probably meet new people who's on my campus and is in my classes and stuff but still I don't even know where to go on Thursday when I get my timetable, guess I would have to email them. but seriously they should at least tell us right? or maybe they did and I was probably staring out the window or something.
I guess I could always travel on the campus bus to see the friends I made today though. I'm so nervous about my two years here, I just hope I get good results in august and meet more people.

byebye
may
xxx

Dream High K Necklace is here ~

2011-07-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously have loved watching Dream High, the korean drama, it was daebak! and once I saw the drama, I instantly fell in love with the 'K necklace' in which was passed from one character to another to give that person confidence, it was so unique and pretty I just loved it, however i couldn't find it anywhere, :( and even if it was available it was very expensive as that was the original, being not able to afford something that expensive as my parents would refuse to buy it even if I had the money as they will say 'It's a waste of money' *sighs* i finally found a replica of the necklace when I was looking through the same website as the 49 days teardrop necklace i purchased and dun dun dunnnn! i found it ^^ i was so happy, so i begged my parents to buy it for me, which they did :') my parents are pretty amazing aren't they... well at times

the pictures aren't very good quality :'( need a better camera seriously, but what do we expect from a non dslr camera hahaha! anyways back to the necklace, I'm not sure what size this is, as it only comes in one size at tofebruary, but it's pretty big so I would maybe say medium-large ^o^ it's quite heavy so that's a good thing, but it's not too heavy that would hurt your neck when your wearing it.
the only concern I have with this is the K bit, seems to have a lot of pattern on it :S or maybe it's meant to be like that I don't know, but it looks pretty anyways, and as a Replica for $25 what can I say, it's not like I can complain as it's not the original ^^

byebye
may
xxx

49 days teardrop necklace

2011-07-06T05:42:00.000-07:00

As much as i loved the korean drama 49 days, I was never really interested into getting the 'teardrop' necklace that was used in the drama, only because of the price was so expensive, so when replica versions of this necklace was starting to be released out, i started to take notice of the necklace. I first saw it on several blogs that was selling this, but i never really trusted blog sellers for some reason? but that's just my own preference, and i know some blog or most are trustworthy ^w^. so i started to search on google for the necklace and came across a video by 'ToFebruary' and realised they sold the no tears version of the necklace on their website;
heres a the website the to the youtube video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-xPzlUv1Jg
link to the necklace: http://www.tofebruary.com/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=8&products_id=713

they also sell the one tear version now, but that wasn't on the website when i purchased mine ^^

here's some pictures of the necklace i recieved this morning :3

the necklace came inside this little silver box, with a silver string/rope thing tied in a bow, but i took that off and threw it in the bin

A picture of the necklace, eeeeeeek, it's so pretty! i'm in love with it already ♡

byebye
may
xxx

update on my life so far ~

2011-07-01T10:07:00.000-07:00

wow, i haven't written an update on my life for a long time, so i think i'm going to, just incase i forget later on, and i was inspired after reading my everyday life diary journals, which i found myself no longer writing ~_~, but yay! i'm going to start writing again either on my blog or on a classical diary notebook for my private matters that i don't want to be public ◕‿◕

School life: Finished all my GCSE exam's last week, now i am DREADING results day which has been decided for year 11 2011's students that it will be on August 25th, i think this day is the day i jump off a bridge OR the day i run away to another country before my family finds me and hunts me down, i know it might seem ages away till i get my results but seriously i don't think it's long at all, it will be here in a blink of an eye, and i am SOOOOO scared it's unreal, never been this scared for my entire life, if i don't get 5 b's at least i won't be able to stay into sixth form in my current school, i mean seriously! what kinds of school needs 5 b's to stay on? okay, maybe some do across the uk, but still a lot of school i know requires 5 c's it's like wtf? Queens' definately has too much of an expectation from their students, i hope they will realise one day that they should STOP being this ridiculous... fair enough with the uniform, you want them to look smart but omg, the price of the new skirt aka the kilt, is something between £25-35! we are NOT posh people, and i can guarantee you, that not everyone can afford a skirt that expensive! maybe they should wake up to know that not everyone has a good job and is well paid, oh and majority of the students are from bushey and watford, as it's located in that area, we're not a private school so lower down the price, it's ridiculous and it's ugly, that's another reason why people would be hesitant to purchase it! thank god i don't have to wear it though! and the 5 b's, Queens' your standards are too high, lower it back to 5 c's unless you want us students to commit suicide if we don't pass -.-

Prom: my prom is on monday 4th july, and being honest, i am looking forward to it but i'm not as well at the same time, :/ just i can't be bothered to go i guess, and i know everyone is going to be so happy and stuff, i will be too! but i don't see the whole big fuss? i'm meant to be excited right? well i hope it turns out good then that day ^w^ i will post some pictures up if i take any ~

Relationships: well, not going to say anything on this one keke ~ ◕‿-

Friendships: i guess friendships are good, nothing really big happening for the mean time, i think i would miss my friends when we all leave, actually we have all left right now >w< ~ but you know what i mean when we have started our new lives, elsewhere and especially if i don't get into sixth form i am 1) screwed with my parents killing me and if i survive 2) i would go to college? maybe? so i would miss my friends, being honest i don't want to go to college, college is no way as good as sixth form, but no can do if i can't get in can we *sigh* why can't i be the clever students for once, this sucks! oh and i have my college interview on the 13th july, i have no idea what to do in a college interview o.O" i'm scared i won't pass the interview? if we do pass or not pass, i have no idea, i only got an email about it yesterday >w<" lets hope i do good then! aigoo, i wish i applied to more sixth forms instead of colleges, :'( but no can do, unless i wait next year which really is not what i want to do, T_T HWAITING! ~

byebye
may xxx

exam stress

2011-06-12T16:12:00.000-07:00

i haven't written a blogpost in like ages, so i thought i might write one...
i have been so busy with my GCSE exams, and i have two more exams left (stupid history exams -_-) why do exams have to be super duper hard T_T, i hate this! and the fact that i did rubbish in my previous other exams too, especially my graphics exam, which i failed so bad, and no matter what people say that i have probably done really well or something, i know for a fact that i failed it badly! I'm the one that took the exam, so i know for myself how well i have done, and if i done well i would know it and admit i done pretty well, but i missed out quite a lot of questions and i probably got some of the questions wrong anyways! and my design wasn't exactly the best design and i ran out of time to colour in my design however i did do like sort of symbol keys of what colours the final design will be like... but still i would loose so many marks on that!
I am not hoping that i will be able to do product design in sixth form anymore, because that just flew out of the window, I'm not expecting A* like i did in my mock exam *sighs* why did maths and graphics have to be on the same day, i spent so much revising for maths and i hardly revised for graphics, this is why i protest having two exams on the same day, it's just not fair!!! I'm probably predicting i got a D or an E overall! yes that is bad compared to my A* mock result T_T should've been sick after my maths exam instead >.<....
In times like this, we all wish for a time machine so i can go back to may 16th and retake my first english exam, and all my exams! i probably won't even be able to get into sixth form as i feel i did so shit in all my exams >.<

byebye
maymay xxx

Pray for japan T__T"""

2011-03-11T08:35:00.001-08:00

as you all know the japan earthquake and tsunami that took place in japan on march 11th in the afternoon, when i was in school i was devastating to hear this as it's heartbreaking to know this would happen to these poor citizens, and seeing the clips during form time on BBC news and when i came back home straight after school and watching the news, it just brought me to tears seeing all those footages of japan being destroyed ~

may god bless you all, including the countries that got hit by the tsunami, and i'm praying for the tsunami to be lifted, and to be over so no more countries will be attacked

let's recycle and save global warming to not let this disastrous things happen again

:'(

byebye

maymay

xoxoxoxoxox

Haul from facial-shop.com ^^ ~

2011-03-10T14:43:00.000-08:00

i went shopping at www.facial-shop.com a couple of weeks ago and purchased some stuff as i really wanted to try out some beauty cosmetics and skincare items, and see if koreans really do have perfect skin because of their skincare products ? i also bought some bb creams in which one was actually not purchased on the website but in a store located in london ^^ ~ and would be posting up a review on those soon ~
i got 3 items (will order more when i have more money tehe)

1) Laneige Multi Cleanser

i really like this cleanser, it cleanses my skin brilliantly, but everyone raves about it for removing their makeup ? well that didn't really work for me, as when i used further toner after washing my face after school i could see the makeup still on there, and it also gets into my eyes when i'm trying to scrub off the mascara off my eyes.. which didn't quite work, but it did a pretty decent job, so for me i will probably use this as my morning cleanser and stick with my neutrogena makeup cleanser to remove my makeup at the end of the day, however it does leave your skin squeaky clean which i like, and has definately helped heal my skin alot, THANK YOU LANEIGE! ♥

rate: 4.5/5

2) Laneige pore minimizing pack

this product smells soo good! and i am terrible at describing smells but it smells fresh but fruity like citrus ? i don't know it's hard to describe.. well for me that is, but it's a nice decent smell ^_^ ~ and so this is like a mask, and helps minimize your pore, and OMG! THIS IS LIKE HEAVEN! it works sooo good and actually something that helps minimize my pores, unlike other products i have tried that claimed they would but never does, i use this once a week, and i have been using for around 2 weeks now and i can see a huge difference paired with the laneige multi cleanser, my skin has never looked this good before

i also purchased two bb creams from skin79, the super+ triple function bb cream (hot pink) and the oriental gold bb cream, i will do a review on the two seperately once i have tried it out for longer for about a month to see if it works ~

i am also planning to get other laneige stuff to try out and other skincare items as well as different bb creams, such as like missha perfect cover, and i am also really interested in trying lioele (well lets dream on until we save up for some money or when i go back to hong kong ehh ¬_¬) i will also see if china town stocks my beauty diary face masks and the laneige snow crystal dual foundation which i have been dying to try out! i will be next going to china town in easter, THATS SOO EFFING LONG >_<""""

byebye
maymay
xoxoxoxox

No Regrets (巾幗梟雄之義海豪情) review

2010-12-26T15:19:00.000-08:00

OMG! like where can i begin, about this drama, i know i'm quite late to do a review of what i think about this drama, but i just didn't have enough time to write about it, as i have been studying for my module GCSE exams for the summer term, ahhh soo nervous, but anyways i have time now so.. i just wanted to say that.. I FRICKIN' LOVE THIS DRAMA <3>

the storyline, you can find out more on wikipedia, and i'm not going to type up the whole synposis of the story, but it's set in the 1930's-1940's (mainly) and you may be thinking.. 'what ? why would i watch a old time period drama?' well trust me, that was like how i was thinking, but this drama took me by surprise! and the story is just presented so well by the lovely actors starring in this! it also gets soooo intense! with the whole japanese invasion of the second world war, which probably is something good to put into a drama, as younger viewers like me, can learn something more about history that took place in asia, as england and most european countries talk about history on adolf hitler, and the europe part of world war 2, and briefly touch on abit on the japanese war.

when 'ching ching' played by fala chen, died in this series, i was crying like mad, and trust me, hardly any drama makes me cry (excluding all the sad and depressing story lines of korean dramas and movies kekekeke) but yes, i hardly cry in TVB or in any dramas, unless i feel really into that character that i can feel it's pain and this is when i could, especially her last moments with yeung yeung (played by raymond wong), ahh i loved there love story in this drama, sooo sweet! and they finally got married ^^ but i would have to say lau sing (played by wayne lai) and cheng gau-mui/gau gu leung (played by sheren tang) were phenominal actors, and presenting their roles in this drama! their relationship is so cute, especially how they fell in love with each other and when they got old and they saw each other again, throughout the whole scene i was like 'AWWWWWWWWW' the whole time, :') but when lau sing died that was a bit of a dissapointment, leaving gau gu leung on her own! and her funeral, was sooo sad when she died of old age, but at least she had a happy ending, as she got to see lau sing again! guess good things do happen to good people ^_^

my favourite character has to be sheren tang's cheng gau mui, sheren is such a good actress, and i never really noticed that before, i remember her in many dramas including your class or mine, and she was good but i never thought she would be as good as in No Regrets! she by far took my vote in her being best actress award for the TVB award ceremony! and she did, no surprise that she won it and wayne won best actor award! only thing i think the drama did deserve to win best drama award aswell, but can't buy me love won the award, don't hate on me, i'm not saying can't buy me love wasn't good, it was an amazing drama, and i guess people do like that drama in a way, it depends on people's opinions and preference as to what they like to watch, as they're two completely different genre's, but i personally preferred no regrets and the storyline aswell.

byebye

maymay xxx

soap and glory products ♡

2010-12-23T17:55:00.001-08:00

ahhhhh, i'm in love... with SOAP AND GLORY PRODUCTS, they have such amazingly cute packaging, which is probably what draws me into them even more, and like omfg! FINALLY, a brand in the uk (made by the uk) which is absoluetly amazing, well.. i guess lush is amazing too and the body shop, but yeah there packaging isn't that cute, i mean it's PINK! matches my room perfectly ^^

i love it so much, that i'm going to dedicate a whole blog entry onto the products! ^^

Glam-A-Lot soft and sexy fragrant body spray

the smell is sooooo nice, and sexuallllll ;) definately makes you feel amazing and it's so different to other perfumes i have tried, and i love this one! it lasts a fairly long time too ^^ which is a plus, i can say this is better than some really expensive perfume's i have used, which is great because this is fairly cheap from boots, definately affordable :D

Mist You Madly a flirty floral fragrant body spray

this is sooooo different from the glam-a-lot it's less powering and is much lighter which is great for everyday use, i'm definately going to be wearing this to school after i have ran out of my britney spears 'midnight fantasy' perfume, which is also one of my love and favourite perfumes from her range ^^ i must say i prefer this body spray to glam-a-lot as i find it's more sweeter and more wearable, in my opinion

Clean, Girls

this is the BEST shower/body wash ever! i have always been a person who loves bathing products and i love just having to sit in a bath and relax after a stressful day at school or with homework and all the studying which is driving me mad! so this is great to actually just wash yourself and make yourself feel so beautiful after a shower/bath :) i tend to have baths more than showers, just because it's winter and showers just make me feel horrible and cold, tehe >.^
it's also scented with Mist You Madly fragrance, which is even better! i swear i am actually addicted to this product, this is far my favourite product from soap and glory ever :)))))

Scrub Your Nose In It

i use this when i feel like my pores are all clogged up, or when i feel like my skin needs a deep clean, this seems to work, especially if i leave it in as a 3 minute mask, which is what i tend to do, and this makes a different to my skin, not so sure about the blemish preventing though :/ but i haven't really found a product even high end products which claim to do that, actually works tbh :) this made my skin so much clearer though, and it's the only skincare product i have tried from the range, i might try more later on, as i am sooo impressed with this product ^^

The Firmnator

this is from there SPA range, so it's the only blue soap and glory product i have tried, but i might try more from there spa range, and they also look so pretty and seem to be promising from the reviews i read on the official website, www.soapandglory.com but this OMFG! it actually works, and made my thighs less wobbly, which is an absolute miracle for this to happen, and made my bum firmer too LOL! i have quite a big bum so this helps tone it :)

SlimWear

also another firming/toning product i have tried from soap and glory, and this one i don't think it's as good as the firmnator, but i wouldn't say it's bad, i still used it all up! and it's good, but i would have to say out of the two i would definately purchase the firmnator over this any day, but hey! this could just be my opinion couldn't it, some people may love this product ^^ and i'm happy if it works for you, i really want to try out the Sit Tight one now, as many of the people who left reviews on that product seems to say how wonderful that product is for them :D

and that's all the products i have tried from soap and glory, i know it's not alot, but i am going to purchase other products from them and do other reviews and stuff on them, just because soap and glory is really starting to grow on me now ♡

byebye
maymay
xxx

my horrible nightmare that won't fade away

2010-11-17T14:26:00.000-08:00

i feel like i want to share what i am going through because if i don't write it down, i think i really am going to suffer more than i already am ~

back a few months ago, during the summer holidays when i went to stay around my cousin maggie's house, i started to get these nightmares, which i wish would just go away, i didn't pay much attention as i thought they was just nightmares and they will fade sooner or later anyways, well basically the nightmares i had then was always the same, up until now they are still the same, but slightliy different, theres a little girl, i have no idea who the little girl is, or what she looks like as i can't see her face, and theres other people around her these people have no faces, and it's strange it's not scary like in other nightmares i've had previously but its frightening and freaky, every person in the dream has no facial features, they have hair but thats about it, they're slightly blury aswell, i thought i was just stressing so i didn't pay much attention but when i went home things got worse, the nightmares have screams in them, screams of pain or agony, like someone is in desperate need of help, i keep waking up over that...
and before i knew it, i kept waking up at the same specific time around 3am-4am i would wake up, and i didn't even realize it until the 6th time that i never had enough sleep anymore, i hated this feeling, not only is it creepy to mention that i would wake up, but i would just sit there and do nothing... not going to the bathroom, getting a drink or anything just sitting there :/
that was when i decided to tell my parents the first time that i keep having nightmares, however they just said i probably watched too much horror movies or stressing out to much or something like that, i just said 'ok' but infact i knew that this wasn't the cause, i thought it was to do with stress and horror movies, but i had no stress at this time of day, and i haven't watched any horror movies in ages, plus these nightmares aren't murder bloody violence nightmares it's just.. mentally thrilling nightmares if that makes any sense at all. so i didn't tell my parents and started to look for an answer on the internet, i didn't get much of an answer, no one seems to have what i am having apart from the only answer was i was inviting darkness into my life like stories, horror movies, games and etc, but i don't read stories,or watched horror movie's let alone playing games, then another person said that they had this problem when they had symptons of mental illness or leading onto mental illness, but i know that's not the cause or well i don't think so, i still don't have the courage to go to the doctor and ask why :(
about 2 months ago i told my parents again and this time my mum thought of something even more ridiculous by putting these crosses in my bedroom as she thinks i am seeing things, which i don't know if it's true or not but the crosses don't seem to be working so i guess its not that either..
my mum took me to the buddhist temple one saturday to pray for peace and after that i have got to admit my nightmares have faded for a couple of weeks, but after 2 weeks or so the nightmares started to come back and this time they mumble words to me, i still can't understand what they're saying half the time since i always wake up, but they say things like 'leave us alone' or something like that, i can no longer tell my parents, since i don't want them to worry, the only person i have told is my cousin samantha, since i can tell her anything but i feel like dying inside of me since i can't express it out to anyone, i am scared to sleep, i'm scared to even close my eyes, because i don't want to have the nightmare, i don't know how to tell anyone this in person or even when my parents ask me 'have you had an nightmare lately' all i can say is 'no', i keep hearing things that aren't real, i stare out of space during a conversation or even when i'm walking, i'm so tired i can hardly open my eyes when i'm in school and i sometimes hallucinate things thats all probably due to the fact that i have lack of sleep, i feel like screaming out but i really can't and i really wanna tell my parents but i can't..

stressful year 11

2010-10-30T14:38:00.000-07:00

omg, i haven't updated my blog in ages, and reading back, giving me so many memories, so thought i might write back, today is october 30th 2010, and nothing's happened, apart from the week that has just gone was my half term, and ahhh! i had no rest at all! had to stay up most nights finishing off homework, my graphics coursework took forever, and i still need to do part of my p.e btec booklet and my music coursework as well as practice my piece for piano :( soo much stress

but OMG! i have mock exams starting on november 22nd 2010, need to be revising so much now, and definately need to be going to after school revision classes! althought they are just my mock GCSE exams, they're not my real GCSE which means if i don't do well in these, i can still make a effort and improve my grades for the real exams, but i'm so scared that i won't pass my exams! i really want to go into sixth form, to be honest i don't really want to go to college, but i'm scared i might not pass, last year when i done my biology exams i got like a U and i don't expect miracles to happen and for me and i will get an A or even a B, because i am not good in biology, i think the most i would get is probably a B/C grade, but because i want to do pyschology (if i do get into sixth form) i will probably have to do biology aswell, and i can't do that without an A/A* but anyways, i have to get brilliant grades to be able to choose my subjects for sixth form in the first place :( which i'm scared i won't be able to do i also want to do maths, and to do maths in sixth form in my school is really hard to get into, you have to get at least a A/A* grade, which i'm sure my brother will help me, as he's really good in maths ^^ but then i have to pass the entrance exam, which i heard is REALLY hard, a student from previous years, got A* for maths and didn't pass the entrance exam, and the person couldn't get into sixth form o.O

oh and my form teacher since year 9 said he is leaving :| WITHOUT seeing us graduate, i mean how rude, and he's going to some school in dorset, where it's really rough apparently, one of my friends sarah started crying because of this LOL!

i also can't wait for the drama, 'Jungle fish 2' to air, it's gonna air this thursday starting at november 4th 2010, it's 8 episodes, *sighs* why can't it be longer :'( i have been looking forward for this mini drama for a LONG time, since september which was when it was originally scheduled, but was postponed to october 21st and postponed to the final date on november 4th :( hopefully it won't be postponed again, i love the synposis of the story, and especially T-ara's jiyeon will be in this drama, and reading some articles on sites, it says she's the main lead aswell ^^ YAYYYYY! further information she is paired with MBLAQ's lee joon ^^ what a sweet and refreshing couple, this is probably the main reason why i am so looking forward to this drama and hopefully i won't be dissapointed and MORE jiyeonxleejoon scenes ^^

i just finished watching the drama, 'Playful kiss' hopefully purchasing it on dvd soon, and same with 'King baker, kim tak gu' they're both really good dramas, which i can play over and over again! i had been looking forward to playful kiss for ages aswell, and i remember when the first episode aired on september 1st ^^, woahhhhh it seems like it was ages ago, time does go past fast :( and i wish it would slow down a bit, i also really enjoyed watching 'bad guy' and i love their OST, especially the song 'Sub title' is just beautiful! i've already played it over and over again for almost 800 or something, o.O! oh yeah i am also loving the current weekend korean drama, 'Flames of desire/flames of ambition' it's really good, a whole totally different story to king baker, kim tak gu, and the actors in it are all top actors! which is good ^^ and seo woo is in it aswell, i like her in cinderella's sister, but she is just amazing in this drama, unfortunately i can't watch the last two episodes which aired last week (that is subbed ofcourse) because viikii video's aren't working for me, although i can understand some korean, i won't be able to understand the whole episode, so i'm just going to be patient or get spoilers so i can watch the new episodes tomorrow or on monday, i know i know i should be studying.. STUDY MAY STUDY!!!!!

there is nothing on tv atm, which is why i am bothered to right this, i am just listening to tinie tempah's new song, it's like miami to ibiza or something like that LOL! theres like no movies on either :'(

it's halloween tomorrow, i still remember how our pumpkin got stolen last year, babo chavs! stealing someone's pumpkin, makes me sick! LOL joking, but seriously ? who would steal other people's pumpkins o.O god, do people these days really have nothing better to do with their life than taking people's pumpkins ? WTF! i bet they feel so cool ehhh ;)

hmm, what else, i don't think theres anything else i could say :/ ...
oh no wait there is, n-dubz are releasing their new song, 'GIRLS' tomorrow, on channel 4 11:20am, i will be asleep or going to wembley then but i recorded it, so it's fine ^^ i can't wait to listen to it though, as i am a HUGE n-dubz fan! and their new album is to be released in 30 days ^^ i can't wait! still need to stick my n-dubz poster on my wall though :/ i keep forgetting to do that ahhhhh! T_T

my daddy has promised to upgrade my phone to a blackberry when my contract runs out ^^ but that still ages away wawa, it ends on april 21st and thats LONG! i'm going to get the blackberry bold 9700, unless a new blackberry bold comes out, i don't know why, but i'm not so keen on the blackberry curve, so i know i want to get a blackberry bold, but not sure whether to purchase the white or black one, but by the time my contract runs out i bet i want a iphone, but they're quite expensive, so i might just wait till i'm older and i can earn my own money and then purchase it myself! i am also going to buy a luxaddiction case to make it look much prettier, and different from all my friends blackberry's, as blackberry's are so common now, i want to make mine individual, i think the main purpose of a blackberry for me is because of bbm, and other stuff aswell, but apparentlly blackberry's always have problems o.O hopefully by then, they will be able to improve on it ^^ ~

i feel so ill, have been for the entire week :( it's getting so cold, and i've got the worst cold and migrane ever right now
oh and i got a new kitten called 'sebastian' well it's 1 years old now ^^ sebz is ginger, and soooo cute!

byebye
maymay
xxx

update.

2010-04-08T13:57:00.000-07:00

Monday: ~ i went to Westfield Shopping Centre in London, with my Mummy and Daddy ♥ and i went to Hollister to buy some stuff... went to eat some cake and ice cream ~ and then to M.A.C to buy some make-up and brushes as mine are getting quite worn out, then i went into boots but didn't buy anything although i wanted to buy a foundation but my parents rang me to hurry up so i couldn't test my right shade, so i would probably buy it another day when i'm in town, i love shopping at Westfield and looking at the village department and going into House Of Frazer ♥ oh and ofcourse Tiffany&Co, i am currently saving up for either a ring or necklace there ~ woohoo

Tuesday: it was my mummy's birthday but i felt so bad, or quite bad anyways because i forgot about it, and didn't even write her a card or give her anything... well my oldest brother gave her ALOT of money, so i suppose that would make her happy... i didn't get her anything for mothers day either O_O!! well later on me, my mummy and my daddy went to Borehamwood because my Daddy needed to go to the shop to do something and my mummy just wanted to go shopping so, so did i, i bought the GOSH velvet touch foundation primer, going to try it out and i HOPE it does not break me out or cause my irritating spots and acne scars to be any worse! i hate you maybelline dream matte mousse for doing this to my skin T_T oh and then at night me and my whole family went out to have dinner ^o^

Wednesday: i had a lie in, went out wayy too much this week and had hardly any sleep which made my skin break out more, and my eyes were just tired and blehhhhhhh just sleepy in other words, but today was WEDNESDAY! ♥ which means more Cinderella's Sister YAYY o^.^o ~ i couldn't watch it live stream as my internet explorer was not working for me :( and then player generally wouldn't work on mozilla firefox T_T so i had to dread so many boring hours waiting for it to be uploaded on bada or available to download on cashewmania ~

Thursday: didn't do much today either, just went out for a little bit to meet someone ~ but yeah it was a beautiful day aswell T_T huhu ~ so sad ~ wish i did go out now, i mean WHEN DO YOU ACTUALLY GET WEATHER SO GOOD IN THE UK! NEVER NOT EVEN IN SUMMER ~ grrr -_- that's why i hate living in the uk, don't mind it having shops close quite early, and not much shops that i like e.g. in shopping malls and stuff, i much prefer hong kong's street stuff, fashion and etc.. but i guess i'll live BUT THE WEATHER! i can't, one thing good is only it snows and i love snow but i love a warm hot summer too ¬_¬ oh and also it's thursday ~ which means more Cinderella's Sister ~ the soompi thread is moving soo fast YAYY! ^o^ and it's only been 4 episodes, this drama is soo popular and i'm loving it, but OMO! ~ TIME LEAP MUCH, 8 years now the story is going to start from and Moon Geun Young has cut her hair or some people say on soompi, they made a wig for her but still she has short hair, WTF! i want her old long hair back ~ T_T and AHHHH next week, taecyeon is appearing ♥

byebye.
maymay

Cinderella's Sister

2010-04-04T04:46:00.000-07:00

yeah babyyyy! it's the easter holidays now ^_^
which means, more sleep, more shopping, more days out and NO SCHOOL FOR TWO WEEKS, go me >.^
i'm bored today as theres no shops open as they're all closed =.=, but i guess i can stay on the computer for longer, reading about cinderella's sister on soompi forums. and watching the first 2 episodes over and over again, i will never get tired of it :)

i LOVE this drama, it's only been the first 2 episodes and i am hooked! i keep wanting more, and the OST in the drama is sooo sweet and lovely, like a fairytale sort of music you would get, i can not wait for Wednesday & Thursday's now because of this drama, there is going to be 20 episodes, i will be soo sad when the drama ends "/ THE WEEK IS GOING SOOOO SLOW, it seems like it's been ages since the last 2 episodes came out :(
MGY is sooo pretty, i remember watching her in autumn's tale/endless love, when i was a little girl on VCD as they didn't have DVD's back then, that's how long it's been and i was watching her role in the drama, i love that drama, it's one of my favourites of all times :) such a sweet and kind interesting drama i will never forget, i think it might of been my first ever korean drama actually, unless i watched another one when i was SOOOO little that i can't even remember, but yeah she's grown so pretty and her acting skills are amazing, CJM is so cute, his smile is too die for, and in episode 1 theres this chase scene of CJM and MGY and it's just sooo damn good, i keep repeating that part over and over again, one of the best scenes i have ever watched in any sort of dramas ^^ i think if there was a "Best Drama Scene Award" that should soooo win it, as everyone in the "Cinderella's Unni/Sister" soompi thread loves that scene too ^_^ ♥
the chase scene ♥♥♥
and SW is soo cute, everyone seems to hate her or critize her saying she's annoying and she looks retarded and tries "too" hard to be cute, but i think she portrays her role nicely, she is meant to be innocent and cute as she's cinderella, and she lost her mother at a young age i think its about 7, i would love to have a sister like her, she's soo adorable ^^ ~

the script/drama isn't about the typical cinderella story that we read about in fairytales and stuff, which would have been boring and this is different, so i guess thats the reason as to why i love this drama, it focus' on cinderella's unni/sister and her view point of her own life, instead of cinderella suffering (although she could suffer later on in the series) she has everything she wants, and she is protected by her father and other people around her, whereas MGY the sister suffers a hard life with her mother constantly going from one men to another, if the story goes along with the real cinderella story, HyoSun which is SW role's father would pass away and then maybe eunjo (MGY role)'s mother kangsook would turn evil towards Hyosun, or maybe she will continue being nice to hyosun, i don't know i would have to watch more episodes before i can make a suggestion on what will happen, but OMO!~ Taecyeon from 2PM is in this drama too, and he is the little fat kid from the beginning who loves his noona, soo cute, can not wait for his to appear, ^_^ i am getting so excited about this, and wish wednesday and thursday will just hurry up as i'm soo impatient! hehe ~

also, i bought a few new foundations, i will write that later on so hopefully when i'm older i will remember the foundation and maybe go back to it, as i quite like it ^^
and i bought the clinique anti-blemish 3 step, in 2 weeks time i will go back to clinique for a check-up, ^^ and i have been using it for 2 days, haven't noticed any difference "/ i really want clear skin so this was my only option left, i wanted to get the clinique 3 step solution but the lady at the counter suggested me to try this, i hope it works ^_^

byebye
maymay.
♥

busted.

2010-03-09T13:40:00.000-08:00

well my day today was pretty shit :/
my music teacher had to shout at me, because i didn't go to my piano lessons, grr =.=
but to add on that i am feeling so ill and wasn't in the best mood considering i had a fight with a friend, FFS! ~
i swear she is forcing me to carry on doing music or something, wtf ? no i don't enjoy going to piano lessons, no i don't like to read music off notes, and NO I STILL WANT TO PLAY THE PIANO BUT NOT IN SCHOOL! i tried to say it as nice as i can ~ but nahhh, she seems like she totally ignored what i had said -_-'' and then she started going on about pressure in school or GCSE's to be honest i wasn't really paying attention to what she was saying, but i just nodded and agreed to whatever she said so she can just stop talking and putting me in a more badder mood, but i guess that was the wrong idea, as i had not known what half the things she said to me, she said she's going to tell my head of house, i guess she's going to say something about pressure in school.. oh thats great isn't it, and i bet they'll contact my parents, and my parents will be like ''what the hell may! your teacher *name* contacted me telling me you was upset in school ? and that you feel like you have loads of pressure on you ? it's not like we're forcing you OVERLY to do well and not get STRAIGHT A*'s in all subjects, even though that will be good as you can get into sixth form and a good university when your older, but WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL US ? IF YOUR UPSET YOU SHOULD COME TALK TO US ?" and i will be like "meh! *walks up to my room and locks it*" then they will be shouting if not i will be surprised saying something like actually i don't know how to say it in english but anyways just complaining and stuff basically.. then i will be like "GRRRRRR... (so angry at the music teacher and the other teacher for contacting my parents" then a few hours later, my mum will probably be coming up to my room and telling me to open the door so i would.. then she would keep on going on about it, then my dad will ring me and ask me whats wrong... then my mum will say "why was i upset" then i will be answering "oh no reason in particular" then she will be like "oh really, well i don't believe that" then we will probably have an argument and i will be texting people and turning up my music to cover her words... and then *the end* end of the day ^_^ but then the next morning it will repeat all over again until a few days when something new comes in....
see how much hassle this has caused and it's all their fault, no actually it's all THAT FRIEND'S fault for being in a fight and making me be in such a bad mood in the first place... o_O ~ then my piano teacher will probably ask other people about me and i will be like ''-_-'' and when i see him, he will say ''what was wrong'' then i will say ''nothing in particular'' then we will have a whole lesson on that, then we will have no time for my piano lesson, then i would miss a whole lesson, i swear i never learn anything there either! oh and then i would have to fix the problem with the friend which i bet is going to take a while and i haven't thought of how to fix it but it will come along if not, then oh wells :)

yes so this is the end of my story of how my life will come to a diaster once my music teacher tells my head of house whats happened... good luck to me to bear with it all ¬_¬

byebye
maymay
♥

Valentine's day soon :/

2010-02-06T05:52:00.000-08:00

it's valentines day soon, ^w^
and on the same day, sunday 14th february 2010, it's also chinese new year ^_^ how good is that, oh and to top things up it's also the start of my half term aswell :) yayyy! ~

hmm, on my last blog i mentioned about 'Will it snow for christmas' and i finished watching it last week, i love that drama so much that i feel like watching it again, but unfortunately too much homework :(
the ending of it was alright, it is sort of a happy ending i guess ? but near the end it showed flashbacks with only pictures of the scene, i would of liked it if they showed the clip like the actual moving image instead of just pictures, thats the only thing that i didn't like about it, and i also wish to see what Kangjin and Jiwan is like later on, :) i hope they could make a special and tell us there happy life ~

<-- i love this picture of WISFC (L)

i'm up to episode 10 on RAW now on 'God of study' obviously i download the videos now as viikii is still pending for the license, haru2subs are officially subbing the drama, and they have subbed up to episode 5 now, episode 6 should be out soon though, oh and i just watched episode 11's preview, got a link off soompi as a member posted on it, there was like a short preview and a long 9 minutes of the first bit of episode 11 i think ... :| HJ/Jiyeon has short hair now wooohooo! she looks good with short and long hair, and i love her, she's my favourite in T-ARA/Tiara and the director of GOS did a good job of telling us about HJ's past :) episode 10 was focusing most on her, and i have to say that episode 10 was far the best and the most saddest episode ever :( i actually cried when i was watching that episode, and in the 9 minutes preview of episode 11 she still seems quite not herself ? in previous episodes she was really happy and bubbly now she's not ? i hope her character will regain her happiness soon as i like to watch happy HJ more than upset HJ ^_^ ~
Yoo seung ho & Park ji yeon, this scene actually made me cry so much, it was soo sweet :)

last week i recieved this really pretty necklace, its sooo cute and so nice aswell :) i absolutely love it, the chains a bit too long though and to be honest i'm not a big fan of long chains so i will have to buy a new silver chain tomorrow when i go into town ~ or get my mummy to buy me one, :)

(there both the same necklaces only one looks more blue than the other O_O)

OMO! ~ in borehamwood there was a stabbing/murder case, :| i think it was an failed attempted robbery, but now because of that scene and stuff, my mum and sort of dad but he's not sooooo much against it as my mum is, she's not letting me go alone to town now pfffftt! ¬_¬ ~ and i really need to go into town but i don't like going with them because they don't let me buy what i want, aka makeup and clothes, yes they don't really like me wearing makeup T_T and clothes because they say i have 'too many' which obviously i don't think i do, as i always struggle to find what to wear to chinese school :/

oh and also recieved a really lovely bracelet as well as a nice necklace, :) it's super duper cute aswell ^_^~ and i love it as much as i love my necklace yayyy! ~

<-- looks much nicer in real life and ignore my hand in this ^_^ ~

that's it for now,
byebye
maymay
^_^ ~

a good start to 2k10~

2010-01-22T14:36:00.000-08:00

well i guess it is a good start to 2k10 so far, apart from music lessons and piano lesson's which pisses me off ==" but apart from that all is good, i mean we had snow days! beautiful lovely scenes, and what tops it up with snow falling from sky is drinking green tea whilst watching "will it snow for christmas?" i am like addicted to that drama, and that drama finishes next thursday :( wahh ~ hopefully something else good will be airing during the same time, i mean i still remember seeing it's first previews at the end of "you're beautiful" ending episodes, and i was like "OMO! ~ that looks good to watch *scribbles down the name onto a piece of paper*" i actually gave up on that drama when i first watched it i loved watching the young actors bit but once it showed the adults i turned off the whole show haha! up until one point i think i saw a youtube comment saying how good it was and recommends people to watch it, i decided to rewatch it again and to be honest i am SOOO GLAD I DID, because i love the drama, the story has lots of twists but i love it (L) "God of study" i remember seeing a title as this being an idol drama on allkpop, and that was when i first discovered this drama, it only interested me because of the cute uniform and plus cute actors and not to mention my favourite T-ara member, 'jiyeon' is in that ;) i am now on episode 6 and am watching raw videos ^^ i love this drama, i loved the japanese one and i love the korean one, this and WISFC is actually one of the reasons why i want the week to go quickly once it's friday HAHA XD because i want to watch more episodes, ;) but yes i am literally ADDICTED to GOS :) i always check for updates aswell on soompi >.^~
Park Ji Yeon! Hwaiting ^_^ ~ in set for god of study (i do not own this picture and got it off soompi).

i went shopping the other day and bought some 'eyeko' makeup after seeing many good reviews on them on youtube so i decided to try them out, and i ended up buying 5 products as they were on sale in superdrug, £1 for each eyeko product, the 3 in 1 normal cream (in pink container) is alright, use it as a highlighter would be too glittery to use as a moisturiser which is a shame or i mix it in with my moisturiser to create a base, the tinted cream i still haven't found out what to do with it yet as i haven't got a contour brush, angeled brush or a densed brush all mine are soft and they won't blend or work so unfortunately i can't find any good sides to it yet, but when i purchase a good brush which would probably be some time then hopefully i can use it as it looks amazing on the makeup guru's, i also got 2 fat balms, raspberry and mint i wanted the strawberry but they sold out :( the mint one smells so good to use as a lipbalm, i love it haven't really used the other one, and last of all i got the eyeko mascara (the one in the silver tube) i love it, although i have to mix in with a different mascara on top or under it's fine, because i haven't really found a mascara that works for me on its own anyways, this does the job but i won't say it's the 'best' and the most 'amazing' mascara i have ever tried before though :/~

putting the eyeko mascara i bought not long ago i am on a mascara hunt again, i wanted to try the maybelline sky high curves but they discontinued it :( it seemed so good aswell, and before it was i was planning to try it before but i never had time to, so i ended up not buying it and now i can't unless they restock it again ~ but i really want to get the lancome virtuose mascara as bubbi from bubzbeauty uses that and honestly most of the products she uses or suggests works amazing! or the lancome hypnose but on a youtube video i saw the eyelashes looked really thick and not much length ? i want one that does both and i heard YvesSaintLaurent(YSL) faux cils works good but it's quite expensive and also everyone says it dried up in about 2 months and that's no use to be honest, but i also heard loreal voluminous works just like YSL and its much cheaper but i'm not sure if it does as i went on boots site and there wasn't much reviews and when i was looking around i saw the max factor lash extension effect mascara, and i really want to try that out, as it seemed to give good length and also no7 extreme length however people on the reviews only like 2 or 3 said it didn't work but the rest said it was beautiful, so now i'm like confused on what to buy, but ahh i really want to get some new trainers aswell, ;) ~

that's it for now,
byebye
maymay
^_^ ~

Happy New Year ~

2009-12-31T14:25:00.000-08:00

Happy new year ~
some parts of the world are already in 2010, its NEW YEAR NOW XD
i don't understand why everyone writes, 'i hope 2010 will be a better year' my years are the same every year to be honest ~ :/

anyways i have nothing to blog about in memory i am going to write my favourite top 10 dramas ^^

1) Tree Of Heaven

what i liked about it: the story was sweet, and i loved the actors in it... the OST is soft and nice to listen to, the ending was very sad and touching and i have to say i have rewatched this drama the MOST, lee wan (LL)
What i didn't like about it: the fact that the ending was too sad, and there wasn't a happy ending, also i found the drama too short aswell :( wish it could go on for a bit longer... ~

2) Maou

what i liked about it: although i'm still watching the korean version, 'The Devil' i watched this one first, Maou is a good drama, and i absolutely love the acting in it, it's very addictive and i couldn't help but watch it over and over again, once again this drama has a sweet story and made me cry but not as much and has a good OST to it ^^
what i didn't like about it: i found the drama again too short >_<

3) You're Beautiful

what i liked about it: the story is like hana kimi/boys over flowers, abit thats what i think... but ofcourse different, i miss watching this drama waiting for another episode.. it was interesting and has some funny moments so it cheered me up on a sad day, the OST has some good songs but i don't like all of them, LEE HONG KI was in it aswell, and his role 'Jeremy' made me laugh so much, when he cried i cried along with him and his blonde hair in this definately rocks (Y) >.^ PARK SHIN HYE aswell ^^ was in Tree of heaven aswell, and the other casts ROCKS ;) i liked the cast and UEE aswell (L)
what i don't like about it: drama ended so quick good dramas should last longer, and i didn't like the ending, it seemed like a cliffhanger~ i wish there to be a season 2 ^^

4) IRIS

what i like about it: i liked this drama, the story about it, for some reason i like the plot of it that Hyun-Joon got abandoned and wanted to get revenge! kim tae-hee was in this, (L)
What i didn't like about it: too many deaths in this >_<

5) Akai Ito

what i like about it: i wish there was more sweet soft romantic dramas like this, THIS IS FAR THE BEST romantic drama i have watched :') the story was cute and well written, it was originally a cell phone novel then made into a drama, the drama is about drugs use and suicidle ~
what i don't like about it: had a weak ending in my own opinion :/

6) Full House

what i liked about it: Full house story is full of interesting, sad, funny and hilarious moments which is what i liked the most, oh and i ABSOLUTELY loved the OST its by far the best ~ Bi Rain is also in it which gives it an bonus ;) and generally i just liked everything about it, however i did not rewatch it many times though.~
what i didn't like about it: it's been a while since i last watched the whole thing so i can't remember the ending, but what i didn't like... hmm i don't think i can actually think of one for this ^^ ~

7) Stairway to heaven

what i liked about it: by FAR the best tear jerker out there to watch, this drama shed me to tears :'( after just watching the first episode such a good storyline and it's like 'Winter sonata' a bit how a character looses its memory and forgets their love... the younger parts were also played by the main roles in 'tree of heaven' ^^ ~
what i didn't like about it: it's too sad to watch, i cry buckets! and it makes my eyes all puffy, the OST is alright but not amazingly good ~

8) Shokojo Seira

what i liked about it: this drama, is the remake of the english film 'a little princess' which was my favourite film when i was younger, so i couldn't wait to watch this, i was impressed i liked this drama a lot but because of other dramas and school work i have lost track of watching this and i have not finished yet, but so far this drama seems like theres going to be some romance in it ~
what i don't like about it: i haven't finished this yet so i can't write what i like or don't like about this at the moment, will write again when i have ^^ ~

9) Momo Love

what i liked about it: momo love, i haven't finished this drama due to the same reason as 'shokojo seira' but when i have will write a full review, what i liked so far about it is that this story is a story you would refer as 'cute love' this also reminds me of a drama/movie but i can't place the name of whats it called :/ hmm ~
what i don't like about it: i haven't finished so i can't write full review, however i do like the cast but i wish they kept the original cast in as i would want to watch more GUILUN from Pi Li MIT.~

10) Boys Over Flowers

what i liked about it: BOF BOF BOF BOF (L) who doesn't like this drama, remake of japanese manga and drama 'Hana Yori Dango' and yes i watched HYD first, i liked that drama and i decided to watch BOF, i was hooked on and back in march/april/may it was my FAVOURITE drama, but now its old i have other dramas that have made this #10, the story goes on instead of 2 seasons like HYD it involves it all in one, i even LOVE the OST and right now it's still my top favourite OST so far, the song 'starlight tears' is such a sweet song i love listening to it, and because i was listening to that song and 'because i'm stupid' when i went to hong kong in april, it brings back so much memories (L)
what i don't like about it: what i didn't like about this though was that it was TOO LONG or maybe not to long but an episode was quite long aswell, each episode was very interesting though ~

well i think thats it now, :)
byebye
maymay
xxx

Merry Christmas ^_^!

2009-12-22T10:12:00.001-08:00

hope you all had a nice christmas :)

yayyy, finally the christmas holidays are here, ^_^~
and one of my friends sarah bought me the best present ever it's so cute and nice, took a picture for you all :)
thank you sarah ^_^ i hope she liked her present aswell :)~~

recieved money aswell, hmm wonder what i should buy or save up :/ i will probably save up i had to spend my £20 on presents for my brother though T_T grrrrrrr, and i'm planning to give like £5 to my other brother as i'm short on money to be honest...

now that it's the holidays, that means more dramas and movies can be watched, finished off watching "You're Beautiful" quite a while ago, such a good drama, PARK SHIN-HYE fighting! ^_^'' and need to finish off the newly subbed 2 episodes of IRIS, heard from youtube and allkpop and other forums and stuff that there will be IRIS season 2 o_O can not wait to see it, but heard they didn't keep some cast -_- which annoys me, but oh well i'm going to look forward to it... i have also finished watching 2 japanese dramas in the space of 3 days, "Gachi Baka" and "Dragon Zakura", gachi baka is a good drama but sort of reminds me of GTO or Taiyo to umi no kyoshitsu as it talks about students with problems and then the students get closer with the teacher, and Dragon zakura i just finished not long ago, i only started watching that drama as i wanted an idea of what the new korean drama "God of study" will be about ^_^ looks quite good to be honest, i liked the japanese one, hope the korean one will be better though :) oh and i'm also waiting for a drama called "Secret Campus" korean to be up on dramacrazy or mysoju wooooop so many things to watch ^_^
you're beautiful FIGHTING! ♥

Gachi baka! ^_^~

Dragon Zakura, good drama! (;

God of Study, OMG! i can't wait to watch it ^_^~~

ahh, but back to the miserable reality is that i have english coursework to type up -_-, that's going to be LONG, and 2 big pieces of graphics homework to finish off, that's going to be effort ¬_¬ and also other homework and stuff, i feel like crying, actually i should be really starting off my homework now O_O!''

ahh, also i bought a friend this HOLLISTER shirt for £9ish and guess what she didn't buy me anything this year what a betch man! and she's meant to be one of my close friends ? grrr, so annoyed by that fact, i don't care if she's my friend anymore, or shall i say she USE to be my best friend a few years ago but now we're sort of apart, :/ and she always talks about HER problems when we're on the phone like she never lets me talk about mine or even let me have a chance to speak gawsh! SUCK OUT MAN!

this year, another christmas, another joyful year... time sure goes past when your having fun :) next year this time i will be studying studying studying for my GCSE's AHHHHH! O_O'' and then 2 years time i will be all excited to go to hong kong hopefully in christmas so i can see all the lovely christmas decorations there, but noo snow, ohhh talking about snow, 17/12/2009 the day that london got excited because snow, 18/12/2009 the day school was meant to finish but was closed due to heavy snow, BUT NOW apparently it's not going to snow anymore, and most of our snow is melting NOOOO T_T that means, nooo white christmas again :'( that sounds sooo racist haha 'white' christmas O_O!

byebye,
love
maymay <333

quick update...

2009-12-05T14:35:00.000-08:00

ohhhh dear, i forgot to submit this entry the other day, so i guess i will submit this one and my new one together then :)

Just a quick update i decided to write up whilst i'm waiting for the drama video to load... I AM IN DESPERATE NEED TO BUY MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY THEIR CHRISTMAS PRESENTS AHHHH! and i'm running short on money aswell, which definately HAS NO HELP what-so-ever, i go town almost every weekend aswell, but i end up buying all my stuff aswell :/ so that explains why all my money is gone... but i am trying to save up, (which i bet it won't last very long.. but fingers crossed)

i am now watching a drama called "IRIS" it's a korean drama, and it's rated #1 drama on www.mysoju.com, ^_^~ so i decided to watch it since i finished watching "You're Beautiful" now, ahh that was such a good drama ~ and hilarious aswell, PARK SHIN HYE is an amazing actor, i still remember watching little her acting in stairways to heaven, she is officially my idol! and it all started when i watched her act as hana in Tree of Heaven, with LEE WAN <33333333 size="5">♥ bare loveage, and now in IRIS is Lee wan's Older Sister, Kim Tae Hee! she's so pretty, and she's not old but she looks younger than her age seriously! >_^~ prettiness and hotness runs through their family i guess haha! anyways, yeah i am like ADDICTED to IRIS, it's so addictive you will want to watch what happens next after each episode and stuff! and T.O.P from big bang is in it wooooop! brilliant cast :)IRIS♥IRIS♥IRIS♥IRIS♥IRIS♥IRIS♥

if someone looks at you and they're not that close to you, what do you think that means ? haha! personally i think it means either they think you're weird, pretty, cute, hot or they were daydreaming and happened to look at you, since that always happens to me XD

TOO much graphics homework to do T_T actually makes me want to CRY, no joke! :'(

That's it now...
ByeBye
MayMay
xxx

want to give up on music =.=''~

2009-11-10T05:16:00.000-08:00

i am getting soooooo annoyed with my music lessons, no joke! i wish i never took music for my GCSE's now, it's like I DON'T WANT TO LEARN ABOUT TANGO OR SALSA! and now... we have to like do this creative task thing which is pathetic to be honest... i regret taking music its so boring, and also having piano lessons, i got a letter sent to me today from my music teacher saying I MUST ATTEND TO MY NEXT MUSIC/PIANO LESSON! and told my parents, i must say, WHYYYY! i missed 2 lessons, and it was because one time, i totally forgot by accident and the next was last week because i was ill, do they expect me to force myself to come into school when i am ill and just play the piano for you, grrrrrrr stupid school , it's not entirely my fault is it, i used to like my music teacher, but now i DON'T! i think she doesn't like me as much aswell, but to be honest she can hate me if she wants because it doesn't really bother, and PLUS! my piano teacher and my music teacher should know by now that i am doing my GCSE's and i will have to be studying in my lessons and stuff! yet they still give me a time where i am in the middle of my lessons, and my mocks will be coming up and i swear if i actually fail in any of my lessons, i am going to murder them !~~ grrrr, words can not explain how angry i am!

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anyways, moving on from the angry side... i am also very ill still ~ but i really don't want to go to the doctors, but argh because i didn't go into school today my parents are making me i really HATE going to the doctors, i have no idea why, but i just HATE it there! seriously and hospitals aswell, probably the smell and stuff ~

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the happy side now, it's soon christmas, haha! i don't know what i'm excited for, it's like i have no more christmas presents to open because i opened them all, well not presents from my friends yet, but presents from my parents and brothers, my oldest brother got me my BOF kissing star necklace yayyyy! which i've finally got and he gave it to me as a early christmas present AWWWWHH~ and my second brother got me these really cute ear muffs, well to be exact my mother payed them but he said he will pay her back which i'm not even sure he has done >_<'' so YESSS! i have finally got ear muffs, to keep my ear muffs, oh yeah i got them from camden town ♥ kawaiiiiiii~nee ~~ and my mother geeez, when we went to camden she spent mostly all her money on me, ahh i feel so bad now she is sooo nice to me, she didn't even get to buy herself anything wahhhh, ~ i'm too or SOOO spoilt ~ and same with my dad, so i guess this year the section for me under the christmas tree will be completely EMPTY hahaha! ohhh dear, LOL~ hmm... what else, oh i got my tinted moisturisers, i didn't get the no 7 one though because i was tight on money so instead i got both the nivea ones, "Nivea Visage Young Be Beautiful Tinted Moisturiser in Natural" and "Nivea Visage Tinted Moisturising Day Cream In Natural" the nivea young smelt sooo good, like a really young fruity smell mmmmm but the other one does smell nice aswell though ~ application~ well i guess the application is alright, coverage is not the best for both of them.. but i didn't really expect much coverage anyways, since it's like a tinted moisturiser NOT foundation.. and so it doesn't cover up blemishes or dark circles or pores or redness and spots, actually i don't think any tinted moisturiser will, as it's meant to make your skin breather, and however i read the reviews on boots saying about the nivea one, they love it and everything works great on all skin types, however! i found that if you have really dry skin like i do on my cheeks especially towards winter, the tinted moisturiser will show up, and if you apply a concealer underneath it will come off very flaky it's such a shame, but i guess it was cheap stuff, am currently trying to investigate on how to make it not flaky wish me luck... my cousin just came back from Tokyo/Japan, and she got me these sticker gems for your phone and stuff YAYYY!~ they look so kawaii~ and especially the sweeties one >.^~

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OMGOSH! i am craving for the MAC 187 duo fibre brush aswell, but that's like £29 >_<'' and to be honest, i really DON'T want to spend like £30 on a MAC brush, even though loads of people say it's worth it, and bubbi on bubzbeauty uses it... and it says it claims to give you a more flawless application and look on powder, mineral foundation, liquid foundation, concealer, and blush... i am currently searching for a cheaper one, as i REALLY don't want to pay for that price, and i found one, in boots people say Ruby & Millie sell one, and i'm not sure about the price though but... some say it's good and some say it's bad and rubbish the black bristles come off whereas the MAC one doesn't and the MAC one is well known and more popular as MAC is worldwide whereas Ruby & Millie isn't, and the Ruby & Millie one is not that cheap aswell~ well i think as their cosmetics are quite expensive aswell, it's not really a drugstore brand... so i went looking and america sells loads but i doubt my parents would let me buy one all the way from america, oh and japan, korea, china, hong kong have them like LOADS and there quite good aswell, well according to the reviews but my parents won't let me buy them as the shipping and tax fee's are really expensive >_<'' ~ but i found one in superdrug from GOSH cosmetics, they sell brushes and people say GOSH sell a stipple brush (which is what the type of brush the 187 is by the way) and so i typed in google to find the reviews, and i found the same result for the Ruby & Millie, some good and some bad, however the price is £12, now i am really stuck... should i get a brush that is alright for £12 or save up to buy the MAC one which everyone loves and knows about and many people use, ahhh i really don't know... i don't live near a MAC store or anywhere that sells MAC aswell, NOT EVEN THE CLOSEST JOHN LEWIS STORE in watford '' wahhhh~ so i would have to go all the way to brent cross which i went like a few weeks ago, and brought £50 with me and spent it all, on stuff! >_<'' can not believe it, i actually had enough for the brush and the concealer, but i did but the 217 brush aswell though from there and a hollister top, and the body shop all-in-one base foundation and powder... i don't even own a powder brush as my one went all dodgey to be honest, so i really am in need of one, right now i am borrowing a friend paha, how embarrassing mann~ yeah and also i'm stuck on if i should but the "body shop seaweed skincare kit" it's also for about £12-£13, but the reviews on the actually uk body shop website loads of people that used it achieved much better skin... and clear flawless skin even when they had blemishes, and now i have blemishes and i really want to try this out, but i'm not sure if it will work for me, as I HAVE TRIED LOADS OF PRODUCTS, and £12-£13 is not a cheap price aswell hmm what else is there ?

the mac 187 brushhhh <33 style="color: rgb(51, 204, 255);">~~

i also want a new keyboard, because my keyboard has broken grrr, but yes it is quite old and i had it for QUITE a long time now paha! and my piano, well my piano is fine but it's just it's not digital, and i won't be able to plug in headphones which means that i have to play it outloud and i HATE doing that ! seriously, i hate people listening to me practicing i mean obviously i won't mind them listening to me play if i already know the song and i can play it fluently... but me practising just makes me go all shy because i think i'm crapp and i don't want people to hear tbh. so i asked my parents for a keyboard for birthday but thats just longggg time! but my dad needs to repair his car and it will forever till i can get one and i also can't practise my grade 4 pieces aswell, because i can't practise both hands together

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i think that's all now, ahhh actually i have done my science tests last week, i think i flopped that test big time hahhahaha!

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anyways i'm going off now,
byebye
maymay ^_^

LONGGGGG to blog :/

2009-10-16T10:01:00.000-07:00

OMGOSH! it's serious so LONG to blog now, so much homework to do now school has started T_T effort much,
at least i haven't received much coursework though since History is 100% on test, and so is Religious studies, wahhh that means more revision to do though... and HA! i just found out that statistics has coursework,i'm so going to fail on that though, but i don't mind maths tests that much!
oh no and also i have my piano lessons in school now just like... urgh can't be bothered to go, since mostly i would be enjoying my lessons or either it's a really important lesson then i would be stuffed

OMGOSH!, last week i started to re-watch 'Boys over flowers' ahh such a good kdrama of all times (Y)♥ and brings so much memories of me about to go to Hong Kong in easter kaka~ the OST is like amazing aswell, have to admit the best OST ever, ♥ and as many people would say, Korean F4 is loveageeeee mann~~ ^________^''

BOF!♥BOF!♥BOF!♥BOF!♥BOF!♥BOF!♥BOF!♥ loveageee <33

oh also chinese school is also effort for a sunday morning T_T but yet i do want to learn chinese, would be benefitial to me later on in the years, i wish i could learn manderin aswell, but i don't think my chinese school in watford teaches it, so i would probably have to go to the one in Harrow or China town init really can't be bothered to go that far though haha! how cool would it be if there was a school just to learn Japanese or Korean like a chinese school.... that would be so sick mann~~ there probably is though but i haven't heard of any... and i'm sure if there is a korean school my cousin (2 of my cousins actually) would be the first to let me know and actually register themselves ♥

i really want to have beautiful nice smooth skin like kim taeyeon or im yoona or kim so-eun, their skin is so fresh and like i don't know how to describe it but there make-up are done so nicely and freshly, i want that type of application of makeup, but all the good and nice mineral make-up and skincare and hair-product brands are in asia, and i live in europe, i guess england does have some good brands on hair products like john freida or loreal paris and pantene are good, but skin care products probably only neutrogena i can think of on the top of my head, clean and clear are meant to be good but the ranges in asia are all acne care, and i seriously need some acne care skincare products BUT england doesn't sell much, and i have no idea why, THEY SHOULD! they have vichy... but they are so expensive and being honest i really can't be bothered to spend so much money on a bottle of face wash or whatever! and botanics in boots, i never tried them, maybe i should kaka~ and thebodyshop well they aren't acne care but they have the tea tree oil thingy range for blemishes, i only have the toner and it works great! but they are kind of expensive aswell T_T~ hmm, what else oh and i don't want to try all them designer brands like dior and chanel too over whelming haha! but like in asia you get so many choices of acne care products for some reason, i should of bought some when i went to Hong Kong as i really don't want to order them online, wahh~ like Laneige an original korean brand it's so good even a top youtube beautician, Bubbi (Bubzbeauty nt to watch her video's it's FAB! learnt so much there) she uses that range and she has so many products from there so lucky! she also has the Tinted moisturiser i want!!!!! T_T the no7 one, really want to try but waheyyy guess what, i have no money! i spent £10 last week on some stupid braceletes which i didn't need and now i regret it T_T and now this week i am buying my friend her birthday present which is £10 so yeah obviously i can't buy it this week, guess i will have to wait till a couple of weeks later, when i HAVE ACTUALLY SAVED UP FOR IT! i want the nivea one aswell.... don't know if that one is good though, might youtube it later on though kaka~

No7 tinted moisturiser + Nivea Be Beautiful Tinted moisturiser ♥ so want so badly, hopefully getting them this weekend hahahaha~~

what else is there to say ? oh yeah i keep losing my precious rings maybe i shouldn't wear them to school anymore T_T but i love my rings, so i might go to the shops this weekend to just buy some rings wahhhh mann~ theres also a really NICE ring i love :(

the picture of the rings i want, how kawaii do they look ahhhhh ~~ ♥

OMGOSH almost forgot, for my christmas present my brother is going to get me this really NICE necklace from, www.yesasia.com, it's the kissing star one, the one from 'BOF (Boys over flowers)' the one Junpyo gave to Jandi the moon and star one yayyyy! it cost like something like £15.... and he said consider it as an early christmas present from him ^___^'' such a nice brother, and he helps me with my maths homework when i need help aswell, i wish i could buy him something nice and he even said i didn't have to since i was short on money (Y) but it's still not delievered here yet... and england's postal service thing, ROYAL MAIL is on strike again and apparently it's going to last fairly long oh dearrrrrrr! i'm not sure if my necklace would be cast as royal mail or not, .... since it should be parcel but y'know i'm not 100% sure on that... i might ask my cousin since she got hers from yesasia, but i DOUBT she actually even knows... and i want these punkyfish dungaree's and they're like £30 though
the kissing star necklace ♥ how pretty is it, really hope it comes soon though ^_________^

i think that's all the update for now :)
byebye
May
xxxx
^_^

hopeless romance.

2009-09-21T11:10:00.000-07:00

why is love so complicated ? ♥
why do people have to love at one point ?
is this really love or is it just a fantasy dream ?
why do i fall for people so easily...
why does love or romance never work out for me ?
is anyone out there, even feeling the same as i do ? probably not.

i can't really express myself out, why i'm like feeling like this and stuff, but i just hate myself for feeling like this... get out of my mind please please please.... now i really have no where to actually write why i'm sad.
even though i'm not as depressed and upset as i was before, thanks to the help of my friends who cheered me up a little on msn i love you guys! xxx
but i still... don't know what to do, and what the answer is to my questions. but now i don't see that person as much, maybe just maybe i can forget about him now, or so i wish that will be the case.

school... is really a depressant at times, am i the only person ever feeling school is so complicated, i mean like every now and then, or every year something will happen, :S well it does to me, no joke that's why life is like so full of crap at times! at least i don't get bullied in school though, although i have to say people who do, i feel really sorry for them because no one stands up for them, hmm i just got asked on a question that...
if i saw someone getting bullied... and i knew that person but i've never spoken to that person or that person wasn't really a friend of mine, would i... (options)
a) go help them out, and beat up the bullies
b) go help them out, then you become the next victim
c) walk past, pretending not to know, since that person doesn't really mean anything to you anyway
d) go get help.
i always say how much i hate bullies, and how annoying and sad they can be, and i wouldn't mind if i get like people saying i'm crazy for saying that, but it's true... i think loads of people think this aswell, but they just don't want to say it... i had been bullied before.. slightly by one of my classmates when i was in infant school especially during reception, year 1 and year 2, this girl would always call me racist name's just because i'm chinese and she's english ? and same with the beginning of secondary school in year 7, well actually only the first few weeks or months shall i say, it lasted... this boy in my form was calling me racist names like 'chinky' and stuff... but i never got that in my way, since i was so used to it when i was younger... but yeah that soon stopped, so relieved ~ right, back to the question i was talking about now... i was struggling to answer the question, many people might pick (a) just because.. i don't know, but most people i know pick that answer... i really would pick that answer, but yet i won't because i don't know if i would, or same with (b) being bullied, is a nasty thing to experience, but when i experienced bullying, i still had friends with me and supported me, so if i was all alone, i probably wouldn't of had the same view though... but in the end i picked letter (d) as my final answer, because i wouldn't have the guts to beat up a bully, although i would really want to help that person out on that spot, but getting more people and evidence and stuff would be better if you went alone, they could be tough people who could take you down in 10 seconds? one of the films that included bullying that actually shed me to tears and actually made me feel how the character must of felt.... the movies and dramas was, Our Textbook, LIFE, Diary of june. actually made me cry so much

what else, oh yeah so busy now, homework homework homework WAHHHH '' seriously man it's like stressing me out soo much! especially maths , and i don't like Religious studies as much because... it's like getting boring and stuff, but theres no coursework so that's all like why i picked it KAKA!~ and graphics... we have a seating plan now wahwah! i don't want a stupid seating plan, i don't even know the guy who i sit next to is called man.. ohhh dear! i liked how my class was before, grrrrrrrr ~ and music, tbh i would just love to compose my own music instead of learning tango and salsa and all that stuff that you won't even be doing when you're older right ? i wish i chose art now, but apparently hearing from loads of people it's like really hard ... but some people say i have potential, but seriously i do not... i do art like a part of a hobby, but like theres no way i'm good in actual drawing for art and paint i suck at that aswell! ''~ oh and i hate my graphics class, we actually like do NO WORK well we do, but we've been doing this stupid bottle thing since the beginning of when we started school and thats like 3 weeks now mann~ but you like can't change graphics class otherwise i will change to mrs.estelle's class which at least i like that class firstly! haha~ or any other graphics class with any of my friends in it and a teacher which i know, and actually knows what he/she is doing PLEASE! haha~

my drawings that people say is beautiful, had to scan these in to prove to people that i am NOT good at art at all! compared to all the good people in my school i am NO WHERE NEAR AS GOOD AS THEM, but due to the scanning you can't see some of the sketching i have done to these pictures !!

that's it for now,
at least i'm smiling now :)
byebye xxx

Tired school days o_O!

2009-09-05T03:42:00.000-07:00

i went back to school on Thursday 3rd September 2009 and now, i am in year 10, EEEEEEEKKK! sounds so old doesn't it!!! and it seems so old, the years surely has gone past too quick, i remember when i was in year 7, and all the year 10 was in year 7, we was so small and tiny KAKA , but now, most of them are like TALL! and look much more mature, (even though their personality might not be) and some of them have changed terribly LOADS! some in a good way, and some in a bad way LOL~~ and we're in the upper part of the school, basically the seniors now, no more junior days babyyy! but that means i will leave school soon , i want to leave school yet i don't at the same time, confusing to say really! but i like school life, well... most of it, apart from waking up at 6:45am each day, to daydreaming and falling asleep during lessons in school, to going home feeling so knackered and bored LOL~~ but i don't want to leave school and go and get a job, even though there is a very long time till that will happen !!~~ and i don't have any homework, either YAYYYYY! actually, it's not all that good in a way... !

i'm also looking for a new blogskin, for my blog! because i want to have a change of things, and change the look and everything, but i quite like my current layout, i've seen quite a few layouts, on www.blogskins.com, and i created an account for that aswell, just to favourite the layouts i like so i won't loose them, y'know! and i have seen quite a few that i like..... but i don't know if i should change my layout or not, HELPPPPPP! '', since i don't really know what it will look like once it's put on my blog, because they only take print screens of the layout they had, but theres no live preview which SUCKS!!!! , i think i might change it later on, like in a few weeks time, or maybe later in the day, need to be investagating on layouts LOL and see which one looks nicest on my blog keke~~

i'm also getting quite bored of facebook in a way, i mean i still use it and everything and still check on it, but i only go on to reply to messages and comments, can not be bothered to stay online, because i'm not really as addicted anymore, anyways, my facebook url is... www.facebook.com/may.maylok just if you wanted it, i would still be online, but hardly! everyone seems so obsessed with it now, just like how they use to be obsessed with myspace, KYAAAAA~ the myspace days, i still remember them, i only made an account when i started year 8! when loads of people already had one by then keke , but i loved myspace back then, and everyone was on it like straight when they come back after school, i bet the creater, 'Tom' had lots of hits, and was quite popular with it all, LOL! but now, it's all about facebook for most people KAKA~, but for me, it's all about msn and texts! i wonder, what would be the new 'next thing' of internet social websites? friendster ? xanga ? blogspot/blogger ? their own websites ? hi5 ? cyworld ? or etc..etc.. or will it be back on myspace ? i doubt that though, it's just the same as how piczo use to be so BIG and HUGE and everyone had an account of that, even i did, actually i had lots of joint account and lots of visitors visited my piczo site, which i think the url is something like www.smintgraphics.piczo.com ? :S yeah i think thats right, but seriously i haven't been on there for like ages!!! like 2 years ago coming, when it reaches ''!!! good old times keke~

my facebook page! above ^ ofcorse though, i wasn't logged in, and my profile IS PRIVATE!!!! ♥

my myspace page, above ^ ! and again my myspace page is also PRIVATE! ~ ♥my xanga page ! above ^ apart from this is setted to be PUBLIC and not PRIVATE though! ~ ♥

eeeek, and i'm hooked onto watching a drama which i'm almost finished, but decided to take a break, to write my blog ! keke~ basically i'm watching <Watashitachi no Kyokasho> in english translation it would be <Our Textbooks> it's such a good dorama aswell! i got recommended to it, after posting a question post on the forums on www.animecrazy.net/forums/ because i really wanted to watch a school drama with bullying in it, after watching <RAIFU> also known as <LIFE> enspired me to watch more school dramas after that! XD because it's such a good drama, so i thought i might give a try, and after the first episode i fell in love with it, it even has Shida Mirai in it! woooop, one of my favourite actors! she's so incredible in acting, i loved her role, even though she's only in episode 1 since she dies NOOOOOOOOO! ~~ really didn't want her to die, but yeah the drama itself is mostly about bullying and her mother (not real mother) who left her once, fell apart after knowing that she died and soon became interested in her death (which she and everyone believed it was suicide) when later on the investigation she finds out from one of shida's friend that it wasn't suicide, yet it was just an accident. but the drama itself however shed me into tears at some part, especially the last episode when the true story was reviled, OMGOSH! can not wait to finish watching the rest aswell, but also because i am watching it online, on mysoju but some of the links to the episode parts are missing and i can't find it on www.youtube.com, or www.dramacrazy.net guess i might have to request it on dramacrazy later on, maybe tomorrow or the day after ~ or hopefully mysoju will be able to fix this soon!

i love this drama loads! definately, a tear jerking touching day to day life drama, contains bullying which reminds me of the drama or shall i say but this is more softer and more like revengful more than BULLYING! definately would be one of my favourite dramas aswell! and i also am addicted to the theme song of theirs keke~ !!!! ♥~~

talking of dramas, another japanese drama, <Ghost Friends> is on dramacrazy, but it hasn't been fully subbed yet, and i know it does take a long time and so much effort to sub a drama and it's not that easy, and not many people would do it! but it's been so long since episode 8 was posted up, and i LOVED that drama aswell, but now i stopped watching it, because i can't watch it anywhere, since the downloads have not been updated aswell hopefully though it will be soon, so i can finish it off !
the drama above is the banner for it! truely is an amazing story line, and for once this isn't a tear jerking sad love story! does contain some love though keke~ ♥

i'm thinking of getting a wordpress blog, but i don't really see a point ? but i might create an account and see if it's good, and then use that instead of this, but if it's not good and i prefer blogger, then i will delete that account and still use this, because i do sometimes go off blogging as some people do ! get's a bit tiring, i remember i made this account last year, but after November i totally forgot about my blogspot account kaka~ and used my freewebs account all along! but now, i haven't been or updated my FW account too long now! might go on it, tomorrow! ''~~~

oh yeah, and tomorrow i am signing up to chinese school! EFFORT! but i would be able to do my chinese GCSE there, which means another GCSE course for me, YAYYYYYY!~~ which i do want since, i am not doing a language for my GCSE's at school, because i absolutely HATE language lessons in school afterall you could only learn French or German or Spanish which is not my cup of tea! LOL~ sorry, but i just love saying that for some odd reason ehh! KYAAA~~ my brother would be with me though, so all is good.... or so i hope fingers crossed guys! but i would be so old by the time i got my GCSE chinese results KAKA~ probably when i'm doing my A-Levels or maybe even older than that! scary isn't it ' but i guess that's life, years will go past quickly no matter how you live it, sad or happy! ~~

in my RS class yesterday, there was this girl who said this thing which seemed silly and stupid to say tbh, but i guess in a way it does make people seem curious! she said "so... life could be just like a game ? like the sims" i never thought this before, but now after she said it, it does make me wonder is life a game, but obviously i know the answer is a straight NO! why would life be a game, someone stupid enough would only believe that right ? but... i don't know how to explain it, it just makes me wonder, would life be easier as a game or just like it is now ? if there was someone controlling you as a 'person' like you control a 'sim' and you make a mistake in your life, you can just exit the game without saving and you could start that day no matter how many times you want to, how good would that be , good thing you wouldn't have to worry about making the wrong decision and stuffs, because not only would you get a second chance, but third, fourth, fifth and etc as long as it could go on for....

i'm going to end here now,
writing too much XD
byebye
May~may
xxx

4 month's till christmas ^_^~

2009-08-28T14:01:00.000-07:00

there is 4 month's untill christmas, keke~ i have a countdown XD i'm abit sad when it comes to christmas, but that's one of my favourite seasons, hmm... if you ask me which is my favourite seasons out of christmas and summer, (since i get asked this alot) i would answer... both, i love summer! the heat waves and you can wear pretty dresses and go to the beach and have a long summer vacation which i love!! ♥♥♥♥♥
and then theres winter, where it's all cosy in the house and all you want to do is stay in with your family all nice and warm, i love those days, hearing the trees blowing against each other from the wind, and then the thunder storms, and the rain falls whilst your in bed trying to stay warm, for an odd reason i just LOVE that feeling so much call me weird, but thats what i am looking forward to in winter, oh and the ear muffs and nice warm coats ofcourse! what's even better is that england gets snow in the winter, well maybe not in christmas though
but you sure do get snow in January/February YAYYY! i really wish that time comes soon, and i will be able to see the lovely snow fall down from the sky, with the music box on! so relaxing !

ohh, btw i got my japanese bag now YIPPPAYYYYY! well actually i recieved it on Tuesday, but i didn't have time to actually write a blog then, so that's why i am saying this now! i'm so happy, i love this bag, it's the right size, actually it might look a bit small from the outside but once you opened the bag ~~~~ TADAAAAA! it's massively big! kekekeke~ hopefully i would be able to take a picture of it real soon, and post it up on here! rather than take a picture off the internet XD kaka~~

what else is there to say ? ohh ermm! school soon wahh! i'm actually dreading school so much it's unbelievable! but i want to see my friends again, and school is the only way i can escape food kaka~ XD my year 10 resolution is to loose weight for sure ! hope it works out though... but arghh! coursework, from my last blog which was about a week ago, or maybe shall i say tomorrow would be a week ago, i said i will ask my brother how to change my GCSE courses, well guess what i still haven't i will have to say it next time he's on MSN then keke ~ ohh, and i finished watching <<AKAI ITO> now, i actually love that drama, it's so sweet and loving! i would definately recommend this drama, i also think theres a movie version but people say it's just the drama squished into however long the movie is XD so i might not watch it, oh yeah and i'm reading the novel atm, it's so different from the drama tbh! the drama was great and it really touched me, i mean i cried LOADS! but the novel made me cry even more, if only they made another drama or movie following exactly how the novel is, OMGOSH i bet i would be obsessed with that and keep rewatching it all the time! i also love the movie, <KOIZORA> it's touching like <<AKAI ITO>> and people on youtube say they are like SIMILAR, but however i think they are not similar in any ways ? ones about a true story, of a girl falling in love with a boy and the boy dies ? and another is about a girl falling in love with a boy who's parent won't let them see each other because of his mum's on drugs (in the drama), :S i don't see whats so similar XD kaka!~~ but anyways, i love those two, definately the best drama and movie of JAPAN of all times! well, ofcorse there are lots more other dramas and movies i LOVE! but these two are definately on TOP! ~~

left=koizora (the movie) tbh i prefer the movie more than the drama, the drama is good but i like the movie, i don't even know why XD but i watched the movie first~
right=Akai ito (the drama) as i said the drama and the movie is the same but i love the drama more detailed XD~
these two drama's and movies are seriously the most bestest romance stories i have seen on screen and read in the novels ~~

oh btw, i thought i might decorate my blog entry with some colors, and some pictures and emoticons! keke~ i do not OWN any of the pictures, and the emoticons! all pictures are found on there official website's! and mostly on google! and all emoticons, used on here today are credited for www.Neskaya.net *thats where i downloaded all of them from*~~

ohh, forgot to mention that! i am watching <<FINAL DESTINATION 4>> hopefully on 3D in cinema on Sunday it's a 15, and i'm 14 but hopefully i can go through to watch it, i really do want to watch that film! been looking forward to it since <<FINAL DESTINATION 3>> was out on DVD! which i can tell was pretty much a long time ago, like in 2006! kaka~ hopefully it is good, yet not that scary, i mean this is my first official time going into a cinema watching a 15 horror/thriller movie on a big screen and maybe it's even 3D :| which would be sooo scary '' aha and also, i am in love with 8eight's song, <<EMPTY HEART>> also known as <<I DON'T HAVE A HEART>>! ♥ the lyrics in korean are lovely, and so are the translations!
i also really want to create a layout, but ofcorse i suck at that kind of thing kakakakaka~ so yeah, hopefully when i am more clever i can, because write now all i can do is just design it on programs on computer and paper, and not actually host it :( because i don't know how to! kakakaka~

anyways,
byebye for now!
may~may
♥

summer vacation is going to quick T_T''

2009-08-22T07:16:00.000-07:00

i can not believe how quick the summer holidays are going now T_T i remember a few weeks back, i thought it was going really slow and really wanted to start year 10, but now i am dready to start year 10, i really don't want to wake up at 6ish in the morning and go to sleep by 10pm. T_T it's really stressing and i would also have lots of homework, not just homework, but coursework aswell, and now i truely know i had chose the wrong subjects for my GCSE options, i chose, MUSIC,RELIGIOUS STUDIES,GRAPHICS+HISTORY, but i know i shouldn't of chose RS and History now T_T but it's too late to regret now right ? i mean my brother told me, there could a chance i could change the subjects, but because i want to change it to ICT and quite a lot of people are doing ICT i don't think there is an available space for me, and i don't even know how to change my selected subjects T_T'', i guess i would have to ask my brother later on then, ofcorse before the school year starts eeeeeeeek, which scarily begins in a week and a bit >__<'' there is some times when i am looking forward to school though ^_^ like seeing my friends again, and i guess time does sometimes go past faster when your in school having something to do which ofcorse would be work -_-'' but, it's sometimes better than being at home bored and nothing to do, ^_^'' ~~ anyways, my brother ordered my bag today (the japanese bag that i had been mentioning all the time) i don't think he wanted me to buy it, :/ but ofcorse he then did, i feel quite guilty actually now, because i always use my parents money, and this time even it's my parents who pay up for my brothers card bills, he still used his card to buy my bag, thank you!!!!~~ but i can't imagine if i had a credit card >___<'' i think it will DEFINATELY be better off if i didn't have a credit card, since my bill will probably come out with many digits on it EEEEEEEEK >O<''~~
the japanese bag that i had been wanting for a very long time! thank you big brother for ordering it for me ^_^'' isn't it kawaii ne~~

and eeeeeeeeeek o.O i've also heard on rumors on websites, and from friends and family that DBSK/Tohoshinki/TVXQ is splitting up >__<'' wawa!!! i really don't want them to disband since they could be considered as one of my first favourite korean band, which i started liking them last year summer, :( and especially my favourite songs of theres is, "MIROTIC" i mean the album that was released this year, was absolutely amazing! i still remember when the song was banned to be shown on tv well the original one anyways because it was rude and dirty i think T_T sooo saddddd! but good thing i had the album, well my cousin sent me the original version rather than the clean version because i like the original one more tbh, not in a dirty way or anything....~~ ohhh yeahh! happy stuff... went shopping with one of my friends on thursday, had a good time ^_^'' i didn't take any pictures though, T_T i wonder why i didn't, i guess probably i didn't have my camera and couldn't be bothered to use my phone camera, it's not like a bad camera phone, it's actually perfect but i prefer to use a camera like a proper one more ^_^'~~ ahh, and i found a link to where i could download the movie <> which i have been waiting forever, and theres also a subbed english version aswell T_T but i can't download it, not only because i'm not a member, but i can't sign up because the registration is closed, and i have no idea what that means, and when it will be opened so it might take FOREVER like a year or so or maybe longer, i requested it on www.dramacrazy.net and i will soon be requesting it on www.mysoju.com aswell, and hopefully they would be able to put it up on there sites soon aswell ^_^'' i mean, when i last requested <> on dramacrazy and it was like ages ago, a few days after the dvd release date, but because the dvd.rip itself doesn't have english subtitles i guess that would be hard for them to sub it T_T'' and so that would take longer, and it's still not up, it's not a bad thing really~~ i respect the staff there because they uploaded so many dramas and movies for me to watch! thank you~~ ^_^''^^ aoi tori/the blue bird, dvd cover XD i really want to watch it, the trailer on youtube was so fascinating! and plus people say the lead actors are really good at portraying their roles >__<'' i even read the story line about this, and it seems like such a good movie, i really want to watch this, i hope the registration for it opens up soon because i really want to watch this seems so interesting, the more i wait for it, the more impatient i get T_T and plus it's even got Hongo Kanata in it, which ofcorse makes me even more want to watch it!!~~ lets all hope it will be streamed on websites and on more torrent download sites soon so everyone would be able to enjoy the movie! ^_^~~

i am also trying to learn korean and japanese aswell at the same time, ofcorse it would be hard, but i'm not actually taking proper lessons, i'm learning them online and from translations in dictionarys which i purchased in whsmith and waterstone ^_^'' but i am also taking like proper lessons of chinese (cantonese) starting the next term which would be in september i think >__<'' i was suppose to join like 2 years ago, but then i quitted which i regret now T_T otherwise i would of known so much chinese by now WAWAAAAA o.O! now i would have to start with these little kids >_<'' but hopefully my other brother would start chinese school with me so i won't be alone considering my other brother is in a higher year than me... now i won't be able to go shopping on sundays, which is an advantage and a disadvantage, ^_^ advantage would be able to save up money YAYYY! i seriously need to save up money, so i can use the money to buy air tickets and go on holiday in 2/3 years time to hong kong again... disadvantage i won't have freedom!! >_<'' oh dear, OH YEAH! just thought of another advantage, i would be able to learn chinese aswell ^_^''~~ YAYYY man~~
and yesterday i started to watch a drama called <> such a good drama T_T'' really is quite a sad drama to be honest, it's about two people, and they go through all the circumstances like mainly drugs in the drama, but according to wikipedia it was based on real life, and which was written as a cell phone novel site... and it covers up drugs, rape and suicide to be together, but i haven't seen that in the drama, but ofcorse i haven't finished the whole series yet, because episode 11's link is broken T_T'' so i would have to download the series itself ^_^'' but it's toooo slowwwwww, and theres a movie version with the same actors but its not up on websites and stuff ? :/ and apparently the torrent is not english subbed T_T so i won't be able to watch it since my japanese is not that good wawa, i wish there was a korean school and japanese like there is for chinese, that way i can learn more languages!~~

that's it now.
byebye
xxxx

happy yet annoyed much?

2009-08-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

ok, well there was nothing much to write about today since i just stayed in and did nothing was too tired >0on sunday, i went to a car boot sale in bushey, near where the cemetary is.. and quite near where queens' school (my secondary school) is. and i didn't buy anything surprisingly or not XD just an flake 99 which cost £1.50 >.<'' should be back to 99p now.... anyways after that me, my dad, my mum, my brother, all waited for my other brother to get ready >__<
on monday, i told my dad i didn't want the £10 note that he said he would give it to me because i didn't buy anything yesterday! don't ask, i just wish i did say i want it now, but that seemed a bit mean ? taking my daddy's money, he must of thought i was strange XD haha! but yeah only if i had that £10 note i could of bought ALOT of stuff! so instead me, my dad, and my mum went shopping at watford harlequinn shopping centre. and unfortunately i bought something there T_T. my mum paid for the school jumper that i needed URGENTLY and i went to buy some other thing of mine, and i wish i didn't now because it was such a waste of money, but yet i'm glad i bought it aswell, :'( i'm meant to be saving money for 3 years time when i go to hong kong so me and my family would all be able to afford to go there for a holiday and actually spend money, and i want to save money to go to japan aswell T_T really want to see tokyo :(, but right now we have NOTHING which is bad >.<'' and i think it's all because of me, thinking back all the thing i bought!!!! anyways after that i realised my cousin, my auntie and my other uncle would be coming my house today : so i had to clear most of my room up, and apparently i had to make a choice of whether to stay at her house for a week or not, being honest i really didn't know if i should of gone, because i would have really missed my parents, especially i'm like a little daddy's girl >.<
on tuesday, i was round my cousins house for a sleepover, oh yeah instead of staying for a week it's changed to 3 days now ^_^ keke~ me, my cousin, my brother ad my auntie went to new modern early in the morning to eat sushi at yoshi sushi, and i ate so much it's incredible >.<
on wednesday, woke up quite early, because i'm not really all like used to sleeping on another persons bed, and trust me my cousins bed is quite hard aswell T_T and my bed is like all soft, so it was a big difference, but still managed to sleep alright i guess kaka~ and then we ate breakfast, and set off to new modern to take a train to waterloo since my cousin needed to meet up with her friends. after me, my brother and my auntie took the subway to Camden Town and went camden shopping, we went into camden market and it was pretty fascinating!! the stuff there was like all emo and gothic, which reminded me so much of japan's harajuku gothic people for some odd reason haha! but still i quite liked it there, seemed different from what i see everyday in watford and etc. unfortunately though i didn't take any pictures which i didn't know why, i guess just seemed a little unsafe there to actually take out a camera or phone kaka~ my brother, well actually my auntie bought him a weird sort of necklace for £6 :S and she also bought me this nice necklace which could be opened to become a watch, it's so totally hardcore! HAHA oh yeah, me and my brother heard that phrase "so totally hardcore" or "so pretty hardcore" in the train station by the escalator haha! and now it's like our phrase XD then after camden we went to westfield shopping centre, it's my first time there and due to all my friends saying it's 'BIG' 'MASSIVE' 'HUGE' to be honest i did find it big but not that big like how they described it kaka~ we went and explored the village part, and looked at all the designer stuff for like fun, haha! then we went to the upper section to look at like high street fashion and stuff, and i went into hollister, i think i am in love with hollister y'know kaka~ and i bought a top from there for £18 ^^ then we went into china town to hk diner to eat dinner yummmmmmmmmieeeeee! XD then we went into waterloo station to wait for my cousin to come back and GEEEEEEZ we waited LONGGGGGGGGG! -_-! kakakaka~ my brother was tired aswell haha! then she finally came and we went home :D and uploaded pictures onto her computer LOOOL!~
today, nothing much exciting happened i guess, i'm quite tired and have a headache T_T, and i'm going home today ^^ and my cousin and my brother is in the same room as me watching me write this now, well my brother isn't now but still he's in the same room, right i better go off to eat a banana now XD that's it

byebye
xxxxxxx

Asian Sensation.

2009-08-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

i am chinese, but i was born in the uk due to my parents moved to england for their wedding and stayed there, my hometown was known to be in stoke-on-trent but then i moved to radlett/hertfordshire later on in my life, i always thought why didn't my parents stay in hong kong to get married considering they met in hong kong and not in england after all, i always wonder what it's like to grow up in hong kong rather than england, i would not be able to speak fluet english like now, i would be excellent at chinese though kaka~ and i would be really tanned and dark not like now haha! there schools would be so interesting aswell because they're all chinese people and not english like englands. but i would love to be korean or japanese, not saying being chinese is a bad thing i love being chinese and being asian ^_^ but like korea has such interesting and tear jerking dramas, and nice music, cool dancers, nice fashion clothes unlike englands to be honest, good looking celebrities! same with japan aswell, and i especially want to visit TOKYO! i googled up 'Tokyo night scenes' and the images that came up was soooo pretty! (L) like hong kong theres so many lights and stuff, except it's so amazing how the buildings wall is covered in lights that build a image! it's my dream to go to tokyo, and my parents say if they have money by next time i go to hong kong which will be in 2011 and i will be in year 12 sixth form, if i can get in there, i will probably be going in winter at christmas not easter though because i heard people say that hong kongs night scene is amazing the christmas decorations are like WOW! so i really want to see it, ^_^ ~ and if we have enough money my parents say we can spend two weeks at hong kong and a week at japan, but thats only if we can save enough money which so far we have nothing :| because i had spent it all, so now i am going to save up the last thing i want before i save up though is a japanese bag that i want to buy, it's around £30 something! i don't even have that amount of money, i have around £20 and thats it, >.<>.<>.<".....

Summer Holidays ^_^.

2009-07-18T04:14:00.000-07:00

yay, it's finally the summer holidays now :) now i can sleep to however late i want and wake up whenever i feel like it, :D, finally freedom is here at last! but i can't believe that this year has gone so quick >.< i will be starting year 10 in september, so scary, i still remember my first day at secondar/high school and lining up haha, funny times. now everyones like all grown up and tall and changing it's so weird thinking back then and who use to be my best friends which now they are not even that close to me kakakaka!~

i have a whole 6 weeks almost 7 weeks of holiday and i just wish i could go on holiday like to japan or somewhere, i still miss hong kong very much indeed :( and one of my best friends well actually she use to be a best friend when we was little i'm not sure if she still is my best friend as she's starting secondary school at september and she will be in year 7 and plus she's going to go to STAGS (st albans girls school) and this friend who i use to be extremely close to when i young goes to that school, she's chinese aswell and i think she and my other friend are going to become close than they are with me :( and i might loose a best friend like her which i don't want! even though there is a huge age gap difference thats why i don't really trust her with my secrets nor talk about my problems because she probably doesn't understand it yet.

argh, i'm also so irritated and annoyed because on thursday it was my schools sports day and we had to wear our house top and p.e kit, and it was quite sunny so on the field where my friends were all sitting down chilling out, i decided to take a nap BAD IDEA, because i ended up being SOAKED! as they were having a water fight kakakaka~ so i was drenched down with water dripping all over me kakakaka.~ okays thinking back it seems funny but wasn't at the time being.
and my water leaked inside my bag leading my phone and my ipod in there to be broken now, :( my phones gone all weird and funny the screen is all dodged up and the buttons on there isn't working either, i mean i have another phone i bought in japan but i accidently pressed a button and now it's like completely locked the UIM of my phone and it isn't working now, and i can't find an answer on the website as how to self unlock it, i could take it to a shop but i don't know if they could be able to help me with it, as my phone is japanese and japanese phones aren't available to buy in the UK. so not every shop will be able to help me, i guess i will have to go mobile unlocking phone hunting XD.

i am also hooked onto the the japanese drama "Tantei gakuen Q", Yamada Ryosuke looks so young and cute there especially in the SP! kakakaka~ so did shida mirai! i like love her acting in every drama she does, she's so talented, i especially loved her when she was the lead role in "14 so no haha(14 year old mother)" it was so touching and she did a great job, i can totally understand how she feels as i would hate to know if i'm pregnant at just the age of 14, but in Tantei Gauken Q she's so funny and pretty in there, i like it when she wears the maid dress and her socks there are so cool! i have them socks but of corse i bought mine in england and her's are from japan kakkakaa~.

i'm also like learning japanese right now, it's hard because i am self learning as i can't find anywhere where i can learn japanese locally where i live in england! there might be some lessons and schools that teach japanese in london but i can't be bothered to take the train to london every week, going to spend to much money on just train tickets and no one i know will be there so yeah.

i'm off now, so byebye.
xxx

Aishiteru.

2009-07-08T14:14:00.000-07:00

i found myself also addicted to a newer and more sadder drama T_T it's called "aishiteru" which means like i love you in english, i first found this video in www.dramacrazy.net and it was in the highly recommended list so i thought i might give it a try, at first i thought it might be about like two adults or teenagers falling in love as it is called "i love you" but after watching the first episode i found out it was not, it had a more deeper meaning to it, it's more about motherly-son love, and how japanese mother these days raise and care for their own son, this drama has made me cry countless times, but the drama itself has not been completed yet, episode 9 and 10 are still missing, and i even loved it so much i decided to download it off www.d-addicts.com, but the subs only go up too 1-5, and subs for episode 6-10 have still not been uploaded yet, i might aswell download episode 6-8 on dramacrazy then as it comes with subs :). but now i can't be bothered as i already downloaded the videos for the whole drama, i wish i could understand fluent japanese now....
anyways, the two boys acting in this drama is sooo kawaii! even though kiyotaka-kun only has like a few minutes role and doesn't appear apart from flashbacks as he dies later on, that bit when the police officers tell his parents their 7 year old son is dead, made me cry soooo much >_<>_<>> :( i really want to see it, even though i don't at the same time haha!

i'm so tired right now, work up so early just to wash my hair to get ready for enterprise day which was alright i guess, so many people dressed so smartly even the boys i mean now thats the first ever time that i have seen them so smartly dressed since year 7! hahahaha! i'm so evil aren't i, :)

tomorrow's a knock out day where we have to be put into teams and solve problems and do activites (apparently climbing a stuff) this will be fun, and we will have to get wet :|:|:|:| no thanks hahahaha! so i'm not sure now shall i wear trackies or shorts, hmm? i want to wear like shorts but i will be soaking wet then! but i want to wear trackies but it won't go with the hoodie i'm wearing ahhh! so confused T_T i think i shall go to sleep now, because i am so tired and i need to like pick out what i am wearing tomorrow and trust me that will take some times, hahaha!

byebye.
from.
maymay.
(L)xxx

i'm so ill T_T

2009-06-30T13:19:00.000-07:00

i feel so ill, i don't even want to write in here today but i just wanted to as i don't know if i would be able to this week, so i chose today, i was meant to go back to school today but because i felt too ill today i didn't and i might go back tomorrow, all depends if i feel better, i had a temperature yesterday but i didn't want to tell my parents as they'll make me go to the doctors and i don't like the doctors. hopefully i will be able to go back to school, but i have it all planned i might just say i'm feeling good and ok lying to them, as long as they never find out then i would be able to go to school, ^_^ funny isn't it how i always don't like going to school and personally i'm not looking forward to the whole lesson and teachers and homework again but i don't want to miss out anything in school like the gossip and stuff, i even have a longer and more boring day tomorrow for me to dread through, and i'm going to feel so tired and sleepy, i might fall asleep in some lessons even. but yes i hope i would feel better tomorrow morning, the weathers been so hot aswell ^_^' i even need to turn on my fan because of it, and its rarely ever on! because the english weather is unpredictable and mostly cold more than hot, so its a really big difference to me, i don't like the heat and the sun when its so hot and shining so much because it makes me even more sleepy and more ill, i have this habbit i always feel ill when i'm in the sun ever since junior school i had this feeling, it's a very sickening and bad awful feeling not a joyful feeling at all! >_<>

a sunny day but locked inside house.

2009-06-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

the weather for the past few days was lovely, the suns out, its warm and it hasn't been raining, very unlikely weather in england :) but even so, i am not aloud out and i should be going to school but school is closed due to the health and safety aspects gave the school a week off, i'm sure you could guess why, our school has several cases of swine flu/H1N1 >_<><><>_<>_<>_<. i'm ending it here now, arms getting tired and i ran out of things to tell you, so i will write up another post soon ^_^ baibai. xxxxxx

I ♥ SEITO SHOKUN.

2009-06-15T11:24:00.000-07:00

okay, right now i have the most biggest obsession over lots of things right now hahaha!
i recently have LOVED the looks of japanese hairstyle especially the airy waves style and the two high bunchies hairstyle like people in animes or manga's have them haha!
i also have developed a new obsession over this korean band SS501 and 2PM and FTISLAND aswell as my longing love for my all time favourite kband TVXQ(Tohoshinki/Dong Bang Shin Ki) <3><
i heard this song in one of my favourite kdrama's 'Boys Over Flowers' and its called 'Nobody' by Wondergirls, and i am currently actually ADDICTED to that song, it's so catchy it was in my head all night last night and this morning before school i just was so tempted to download it aswell :) and i was listening to it on the way to school and back and when i got home i can't stop listening to it, such a tune man ^^~
another thing i am SOOOOOOOOOOO ADDICTED TO AND ITS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET OUT OF MY HEAD IS A JDRAMA CALLED 'SEITO SHOKUN!' in english would be 'Dear Students!' or 'attention class!' it's such a good drama, even though the drama has been out quite a while back in 2007, but i was hooked onto watching it after episode 1! i just love the story about the rebellious students in class 2-3. and the actor's and actresses are so talented in there, it's basically about a normal middle school or once was normal and a new homeroom teacher arrived in class 2-3. and the story goes on about the female teacher trying to find out about why the students are so rebellious about them not trusting teachers again, later on it will say why and the existence of 3TD is reveled, and i love the characters in 3TD (horikita maki, hongo kanata, okada masaki) ♥ i always loved horikita maki's acting skills, i have seen so many drama's with her in it, and my first drama i have watched with her is 'Nobuto Wo Produce' quite a nice drama to be honest ^^ and i love her new role in 'Atashinchi no danshi' it's so different but a really entertaining drama to watch, but unfortunely the drama has not finished airing yet and anyways the subs are not yet been translated to english, up to episode 7. so i will have to wait now. and i LOVE HONGO KANATA he's so cuteee! bless, and OKADA MASAKI (; is just my favourite right now and in seito shokun! he looked so good looking with his blonde hair man! >< i have already re-watched seito shokun 3 times in less than a week, not my world record but hey! because i'm writing this i can't watch it right now hahaha!

also i am also so upset for some reason ? well not actually upset upset if you get what i mean, but like because my stupid msn is not letting me sign into my account :( but i can log onto my other account but i don't have much of my friends on that as all the people i know have my current account but not my old one, which is the temp one i am using, and there is no solution i could find on the internet i mean i have tried everything from yahoo!answers to google to wiki to ehow to EVERYTHING basically, and even when i asked my eldest brother who is like extremely good in ICT he doesn't even know :( and now i feel really upset but i have posted on my facebook page that i couldn't log in so hopefully they won't think that i blocked them or anything or if there is some sort of emergency then i am like >< OH NO, but they could text or ring me unless they don't have any credit o.O,~
anyways and another thing i am annoyed with right now is that i have sims 3, but whenever i log into the game for about 5-10 minutes into the game, the game freezes and the screen goes black and all the buttons and the error message turns HUGE and when i mean huge its like 3x it's average size! no joke!!! and i can't do anything but to turn my computer off by the power switch thing on the monitor whatever you call it, and then all my data in sims 3 would be erased :( all my hard work aswell, grrrrrrr! so angry about the msn and sims 3 now, hopefully i will be able to fix both soon, i want both of them to run proberly, so lets hope for the best!!!!!!!! :) i wish there could be some sort of solution but none of it helps me out with either of my situations here, :( is there really no way ? T_T i don't want to get everyone to add my on msn because i can't really tell them as the people that i talk to on msn are the only contacting way :( silly msn and sims 3. i pray for it to work soon, ):

anyways i'm off now, going to watch seito shokun.
so byebye, right later on. ~
xxxx

why hello there (:

2009-06-05T14:25:00.000-07:00

hello :)

forget about the last blog entry i made now, because i am feeling much better than i had, well tad bit anyways, but the problem that day has now solved for now. :)

If you wear a really baggy hoodie/jumper, preferable a boys and your a girl and you wear a pink checked type of pattern on it mini skirt pleated, with knee high black socks, and a tiffany&co necklace quite chunky, and two bunchies with a bow in your hair does that seem ever so chavvy or slutty to you ? because according to someone who intentionally hates me in person anyways says i do, i just wanted to know peoples opinions you know :).

and today in school, argh the rain really put me in a bad mood, i hate it when the suns not out, boring old british weather sucks, even though its meant to be summer, the last few days did feel like summer, but today DID NOT! i believe that england will never ever get a proper summer weather HAHA.
oh, and before form time today, there was this group of year 8's which one of them was my friends sister and her friend who has long blonde hair, and she is such a wannabe chav NO JOKE, she always acts like one and grrrrr it annoys me and she was like after she walked past us 'they kept looking at us' and the before she turned round the corner she said to me 'if you have any problems then say it to my face' i mean what a loser man, if she wants to have something to complain to why don't she say it to my frickin' face and not round the corner, ARGH! and plus when she was there i said 'shut up' to her ahahhaahaha! seriously man, chavs should just learn how to control there manners, so rude i mean i don't mind normal proper chavs, but like wannabe chavs they actually make me laugh so much HAHA! i mean they try to be like them and they try so hard, and there make up is like piled on, bad for there skin and the way they TRY SO HARD TO BE A CHAV just makes me think, 'get a life' maybe some people would disagree with me like that stuck up loser gash today at school but hey! this is my opinion and everyone gets there speech and because of this girl she annoyed me so much this is how i am going to express myself so BLAME IT ON HER SUCKER! next time i see her i believe i will give her the most EVIL EVILS!!! she probably doesn't even know what the word 'CHAV' means, so why don't she go look it up in her dictionary MATE! and if you don't agree with my stuff it!.

anyways, i also really hate to say this but i like someone else now, and i can't get him off my mind no matter what :(
my school is seperate into 4 houses, sutherland, drake, auden, newton. and we all have different color ties, blue, green, yellow, red. and i'm in blue tie (sutherland), and since year 7 i had the best form ever, and i had fallen for someone i think i shouldn't of, he use to be in my form since year 7, and we talk and everything and he knows who i am, i won't say we're extremely close, he use to be very horrible to me but now he's alright with me, but before the half terms he got excluded because apparently on the mini bus he beated up this boy brendon really badly and he had reported the police, and the boy i like's mother was going to take him out the school but then kept him in, but now he's moved houses/colors from blue to green (drake) and now i hardly see him, :( and i miss him, i can't forget about everything about him, i mean i have known him for 3 years, i remember the first time i saw him, and everything L: grr so annoying, i only started falling for him because i had a crush on someone else who is going out with one of my mates who i use to be extremely close to, so i thought of him, which now i do regret ><~ i really really wish he could come back into sutherland, i miss him in a way, but i never actually really told anyone this because i don't want people to know that i like him and etc etc, you know the school rumor news goes by really quickly from one person to the whole school knowing, :( but i know its actually impossible for him to come back as he's been moved houses and there no way for him to come back just like at the beginning of the year a boy 'jordan' was in sutherland but then got moved to drake and never came back to sutherland and stayed in drake :( and a newton (red) boy idreese got moved to auden (yellow) not long and he's not going back, and now its sams turn so i guess he won't be coming back, but i miss him incredibly, i just feel like it was only because he was in my form and i was in quite a few of his lessons before he actually talked and knew who i was, but maybe because he's moved into drake he would have new friends and have a new form to get use to and would forget not just me alone but everyone in my form, that would not a good thing and he's good at sport thats good that means one less good player to represent sutherland on sports day which is not long off :(. we're going to lose once again, waaa! i can not describe how or if my heart does feel painful or not but.......... all i know if that i really want to express or scream it out because after writing i only feel about 2% better :( HELP ME PLEASE, :( i really... atcually i don't know what i want i just agrhhh, i can't even think or know what i should right now :| i want sam back but thats actually 100% NO answer for that and i know it would never come true and for sam's personality and everything he will not like a person like me and its better if he doesn't know :) but i do miss him, and its strange not having him in form anymore.... :S in a way anyways, i think i should stop here now as i am tired and ahh everything. carry on later about if i can express out what i want to say. byebye may~

Hong Kong '09.

2009-05-24T05:13:00.000-07:00

what i was suppose to say the other day, that i was planning to write but then couldn't really be bothered, was that on april 13th 2009, i was setting off to hong kong, :) best place on earth, i remember when i went there like 3 years ago, ahh i do miss there alot, :( and i still do, even though its been a month now, one month ago i was setting off back to england :'( it's not like i HATE england, because i have to admit that i don't surprisingly or not, but i love my school and my friends and my lifestyle and the air here, but in hong kong i just miss the shopping the night life and all that stuff, and i do feel more belonging as most people there are all chinese like i am, and england is mostly all english.

anyways lets start about what i did there, well i went shopping and stuff, i do remember 3 years ago when i went to hong kong really clearly and it seemed like it was just yesterday i can not believe it was 3 years ago, i mean it didn't seem all that long :S i guess time goes by when your having fun, have i really changed? looking back the pictures of my last holiday in '06, i had no fringe, ermm clothes was normal casual nothing fashionable, really LONG hair abit and tied back in a ponytail, and middle parting haha those pictures actually make me laugh :) and this year, even though i had no make up or skin care products on, but i had a fringe, side fringe/indie style, long hair, layered, and tied... i can not describe it like a messy bun if you get what i mean :).

OMG! 3 years ago, i saw this boy who i did not know whether if the person was a boy or a girl, okay i know the person was a boy but he also looked such like a girl, maybe it's cause of his hair, i mean the face looks like a boy :S and i went to the basketball court almost everyday to watch people play basketball because he was there, i still have a video that i recorded well actually my dad did, and he's in it, for the first like couple of months he was still on my mind, but i guess because i started high school/secondary school, and had more important things and liked different people, he seemed to just be not in my mind or not as important anyways, until when i went back this year i remember everything, he was never at the basketball court anymore, wouldn't surprise me as he seems a bit older than me and i am in year 9 so he maybe would be in year 10/11 or college. so he wouldn't really play basketball all day would he... but i never guessed that i would see him, or meet him again, ever, for sure next time i go to hong kong which would be 3 years ? or 2 maybe, i would definately not be able to see him again, as 1) he lives in pak kong where i stayed this year but i would be going to sai kung next time, 2) he could of moved to city. i do like him alot :(. and he is always on my mind, grr it annoys me, oh yeah my dad spotted him aswell, he said he recognised him even though he had his hair cut but GEEZ he was fit (; i wish i could move to hong kong.

i actually really miss every bit in hong kong, especially the fashion and everything, but i would love to go to japan for fashion (L) and i also really really want to go to korea, :) even though its much colder in those countries but sure would be more fascinating, i would do anything to actually move to hong kong :( because i miss there so much, even though i said this 3 years ago and i managed to survive in england for 3 more years haha, but i really really really want to move there, or maybe this would be another story if i know i have to go to school there, apparently according to my parents and people, students in hong kong have a lot of pressure in them, hong kong's culture is so unlike englands by far though :S students in hong kong, have different uniform well some of them do anyways, and i like them even though i do prefer japanese uniform by farrr to any other uniform :) because they have so much fashion even though the queens' uniform is not bad, but i just hate the fact that we can't wear our jumpers alone without the blazer, :( i must change the rule for that haha, and they have so big rucksack bags, :| whereas we have like handbag styles lol, and they have alot of homework, and i thought i have alot of homework to do, and there desks are one each unlike englands we have one table for two, :) i like one desk each it seems more special and don't need to worry about who to sit next to :). especially the school in hong kong STS, sung tsun sai kung high school. i went for a tour there HAHA! ^^ and the girls hair and boys is so plain, ? you don't see girls with highlights in there hair, or big indie styles, or with big bows or boys with long hairsprayed hair or gelled spikey hair, ? and they don't wear accessories aswell, but in my high school in england, loads of people do that :s i guess it must be against the rule then, oh wells i'm going off for lunch now, finish off in another day :)

byebye.
may.xxx

Happy Family Gala :D

2008-08-24T13:17:00.000-07:00

well today, i went to brent cross shopping centre NCR car park because tvb happy family gala is here :) if you don't already know what the happy family gala is it is a event where tvb selects some chinese celebrities from hong kong to come to england and perform and play games in the shopping centre car park, this year fala chen and michael tse and another celebrity (sorry i forgot his name) came to perform, i went there about 12, and went back home about 6ish, its was amazing :) there was some games to perform but the bad thing is that we have to stand and its sooo crowded many people were pushing in front and we could hardly move i never felt sooo crowded and cramped together before!! my legs were aching too wait too see the show!! before there was several break dancers :) they were brilliant fantastic i would say :) thumbs up (Y) the people behind me and my daddy were saying they were rubbish i don't think that in my opinion. :) cheer on woop woop.

when michael tsu and fala chen came on stage many people were clapping and ofcorse i was one of them haha!!! they have another show in glasgow on the 26th but no thanks i won't go all the way to glasgow to just see the show again since i already watched it :) i took many pictures of fala chen mostly :) and some of the other people. i like fala chens singing :) shes amazing, i know she lived in the states, her english is suberb :D and she is soooo good in dancing with michael tse and fala chen WOOOOOO! i even filmed a video of it :) fala chen is soooo pretty, shes a great actor during the tv series moonlight resonance she is a mute girl and she did a excellent job in it :) shes already pretty over the camera/tv but to be honest i think she looks amazingly pretty in person :D at the end of the show.... i queued up for ages to get there autographs :D and now i got them and i saw them in person and close up AHHHHH! *screams* hehe haha.... i was meant to see chloe one of my bestfriends afterwards but i guess i forgot and i think i just wondered off loll. ohh well i already texted her, i keep the autographs in a special photo album of all the celebrity pictures and signatures in it :) xxxxxxx i was sooo happy today and i ate sooo much food yummy yummy xx

loves.
May xx♥