why is love so complicated ? ♥
why do people have to love at one point ?
is this really love or is it just a fantasy dream ?
why do i fall for people so easily...
why does love or romance never work out for me ?
is anyone out there, even feeling the same as i do ? probably not.



i can't really express myself out, why i'm like feeling like this and stuff, but i just hate myself for feeling like this... get out of my mind please please please.... now i really have no where to actually write why i'm sad.
even though i'm not as depressed and upset as i was before, thanks to the help of my friends who cheered me up a little on msn i love you guys! xxx
but i still... don't know what to do, and what the answer is to my questions. but now i don't see that person as much, maybe just maybe i can forget about him now, or so i wish that will be the case.


school... is really a depressant at times, am i the only person ever feeling school is so complicated, i mean like every now and then, or every year something will happen, :S well it does to me, no joke that's why life is like so full of crap at times! at least i don't get bullied in school though, although i have to say people who do, i feel really sorry for them because no one stands up for them, hmm i just got asked on a question that...
if i saw someone getting bullied... and i knew that person but i've never spoken to that person or that person wasn't really a friend of mine, would i... (options)
a) go help them out, and beat up the bullies
b) go help them out, then you become the next victim
c) walk past, pretending not to know, since that person doesn't really mean anything to you anyway
d) go get help.
i always say how much i hate bullies, and how annoying and sad they can be, and i wouldn't mind if i get like people saying i'm crazy for saying that, but it's true... i think loads of people think this aswell, but they just don't want to say it... i had been bullied before.. slightly by one of my classmates when i was in infant school especially during reception, year 1 and year 2, this girl would always call me racist name's just because i'm chinese and she's english ? and same with the beginning of secondary school in year 7, well actually only the first few weeks or months shall i say, it lasted... this boy in my form was calling me racist names like 'chinky' and stuff... but i never got that in my way, since i was so used to it when i was younger... but yeah that soon stopped, so relieved ~ right, back to the question i was talking about now... i was struggling to answer the question, many people might pick (a) just because.. i don't know, but most people i know pick that answer... i really would pick that answer, but yet i won't because i don't know if i would, or same with (b) being bullied, is a nasty thing to experience, but when i experienced bullying, i still had friends with me and supported me, so if i was all alone, i probably wouldn't of had the same view though... but in the end i picked letter (d) as my final answer, because i wouldn't have the guts to beat up a bully, although i would really want to help that person out on that spot, but getting more people and evidence and stuff would be better if you went alone, they could be tough people who could take you down in 10 seconds? one of the films that included bullying that actually shed me to tears and actually made me feel how the character must of felt.... the movies and dramas was, Our Textbook, LIFE, Diary of june. actually made me cry so much


what else, oh yeah so busy now, homework homework homework WAHHHH '' seriously man it's like stressing me out soo much! especially maths , and i don't like Religious studies as much because... it's like getting boring and stuff, but theres no coursework so that's all like why i picked it KAKA!~ and graphics... we have a seating plan now wahwah! i don't want a stupid seating plan, i don't even know the guy who i sit next to is called man.. ohhh dear! i liked how my class was before, grrrrrrrr ~ and music, tbh i would just love to compose my own music instead of learning tango and salsa and all that stuff that you won't even be doing when you're older right ? i wish i chose art now, but apparently hearing from loads of people it's like really hard ... but some people say i have potential, but seriously i do not... i do art like a part of a hobby, but like theres no way i'm good in actual drawing for art and paint i suck at that aswell! ''~ oh and i hate my graphics class, we actually like do NO WORK well we do, but we've been doing this stupid bottle thing since the beginning of when we started school and thats like 3 weeks now mann~ but you like can't change graphics class otherwise i will change to mrs.estelle's class which at least i like that class firstly! haha~ or any other graphics class with any of my friends in it and a teacher which i know, and actually knows what he/she is doing PLEASE! haha~





my drawings that people say is beautiful, had to scan these in to prove to people that i am NOT good at art at all! compared to all the good people in my school i am NO WHERE NEAR AS GOOD AS THEM, but due to the scanning you can't see some of the sketching i have done to these pictures !!

that's it for now,
at least i'm smiling now :)
byebye xxx add more notes

why is love so complicated ? ♥
why do people have to love at one point ?
is this really love or is it just a fantasy dream ?
why do i fall for people so easily...
why does love or romance never work out for me ?
is anyone out there, even feeling the same as i do ? probably not.



i can't really express myself out, why i'm like feeling like this and stuff, but i just hate myself for feeling like this... get out of my mind please please please.... now i really have no where to actually write why i'm sad.
even though i'm not as depressed and upset as i was before, thanks to the help of my friends who cheered me up a little on msn i love you guys! xxx
but i still... don't know what to do, and what the answer is to my questions. but now i don't see that person as much, maybe just maybe i can forget about him now, or so i wish that will be the case.


school... is really a depressant at times, am i the only person ever feeling school is so complicated, i mean like every now and then, or every year something will happen, :S well it does to me, no joke that's why life is like so full of crap at times! at least i don't get bullied in school though, although i have to say people who do, i feel really sorry for them because no one stands up for them, hmm i just got asked on a question that...
if i saw someone getting bullied... and i knew that person but i've never spoken to that person or that person wasn't really a friend of mine, would i... (options)
a) go help them out, and beat up the bullies
b) go help them out, then you become the next victim
c) walk past, pretending not to know, since that person doesn't really mean anything to you anyway
d) go get help.
i always say how much i hate bullies, and how annoying and sad they can be, and i wouldn't mind if i get like people saying i'm crazy for saying that, but it's true... i think loads of people think this aswell, but they just don't want to say it... i had been bullied before.. slightly by one of my classmates when i was in infant school especially during reception, year 1 and year 2, this girl would always call me racist name's just because i'm chinese and she's english ? and same with the beginning of secondary school in year 7, well actually only the first few weeks or months shall i say, it lasted... this boy in my form was calling me racist names like 'chinky' and stuff... but i never got that in my way, since i was so used to it when i was younger... but yeah that soon stopped, so relieved ~ right, back to the question i was talking about now... i was struggling to answer the question, many people might pick (a) just because.. i don't know, but most people i know pick that answer... i really would pick that answer, but yet i won't because i don't know if i would, or same with (b) being bullied, is a nasty thing to experience, but when i experienced bullying, i still had friends with me and supported me, so if i was all alone, i probably wouldn't of had the same view though... but in the end i picked letter (d) as my final answer, because i wouldn't have the guts to beat up a bully, although i would really want to help that person out on that spot, but getting more people and evidence and stuff would be better if you went alone, they could be tough people who could take you down in 10 seconds? one of the films that included bullying that actually shed me to tears and actually made me feel how the character must of felt.... the movies and dramas was, Our Textbook, LIFE, Diary of june. actually made me cry so much


what else, oh yeah so busy now, homework homework homework WAHHHH '' seriously man it's like stressing me out soo much! especially maths , and i don't like Religious studies as much because... it's like getting boring and stuff, but theres no coursework so that's all like why i picked it KAKA!~ and graphics... we have a seating plan now wahwah! i don't want a stupid seating plan, i don't even know the guy who i sit next to is called man.. ohhh dear! i liked how my class was before, grrrrrrrr ~ and music, tbh i would just love to compose my own music instead of learning tango and salsa and all that stuff that you won't even be doing when you're older right ? i wish i chose art now, but apparently hearing from loads of people it's like really hard ... but some people say i have potential, but seriously i do not... i do art like a part of a hobby, but like theres no way i'm good in actual drawing for art and paint i suck at that aswell! ''~ oh and i hate my graphics class, we actually like do NO WORK well we do, but we've been doing this stupid bottle thing since the beginning of when we started school and thats like 3 weeks now mann~ but you like can't change graphics class otherwise i will change to mrs.estelle's class which at least i like that class firstly! haha~ or any other graphics class with any of my friends in it and a teacher which i know, and actually knows what he/she is doing PLEASE! haha~





my drawings that people say is beautiful, had to scan these in to prove to people that i am NOT good at art at all! compared to all the good people in my school i am NO WHERE NEAR AS GOOD AS THEM, but due to the scanning you can't see some of the sketching i have done to these pictures !!

that's it for now,
at least i'm smiling now :)
byebye xxx add more notes

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